Sabriel♥

I miss him. :(

2011-01-07T13:45:00.000+08:00

Bi went for NS on tuesday. he told me there were very few chinese. :( i hope he will be ok there. i am going to pray hard everyday that nothing happens to him. :) his dad wrote a letter so he wouldn't have to participate in the swimming activities. i am so not used to not talking to him every day. i promised him i would be a good girl for 3 months waiting for him to come back. :) college is starting next monday. feels so scary. it's like a whole new chapter of my life. i want him to be here but i cant be so selfish. :) bi told me he didnt wan to be there. that really made me sad. sounded like it was very hard. i miss him a lot. might be going to visit pammy this sunday. :) jialing asked me to go. not sure if my mum will allow. i asked his bro would they be visiting him and he told me they planning to visit him next week. and he told me will bring me along. i feel so troublesome for tagging along on a family visit. still contemplating should i go or not. but his bro said is bi ask him bring me go. it's going to be so weird being with his family without him.

registered as a student at Sunway University on christmas eve. :) got the offer letter. then daddy dropped me at pyramid to so called meet my friends. walked around for 4 hours alone because bi went to see his future. the person says he cant drive. all fortune tellers say the same thing. so unbelievable. bi drove to pyramid although he knew it was going to be super jam. reason was because i wanted him to fetch me home. he was really nervous about driving out. i think he did ok. :) watched Just Call Me Nobody with bi, jialing, pammy, kaixiang and wengsoong. :) the little kid is so cute. :D ate dinner with his family again because bi was lazy to drive me home. so went to his house and his parents brought us out. so awkward la eating dinner with his family. his younger brother is ok cause i have known him for quite a while.

New Year Countdown. :) i know this will sound weird but this is the first time i went for a countdown. bi got mad at me when i asked him if he was joining his classmates for the countdown. he forgot we had plans with kaixiang and yee er. he thought it was just the two of us. what a blur boyfriend. :) went to pyramid around 11. then bi came to fetch me to his house. :) that was the first time i had to eat lunch with his older brother and his girlfriend. so awkward la. normally when i went to his house i only eat lunch with him and his younger brother. his mum fetched us to pyramid around 5.30 as she wanted to watch the 6pm show. :) met up with his friends and they started playing snooker. we had dinner at a weird shop. i cant really remember the name. :P intended to watch movies after dinner but no tickets. :( then bi and all the guys went with cheehou to get spray from his friend at some shop opposite sunway. that left me with linghui and suann. they are quite ok, quite fun to talk to. :) shinyi came around 10 and we went to find bi. the countdown was at the rooftop. :) when i got home i only realized i used less than 10 that day. bi payed for alomst everything.

last outing with my baby before he went for ns. bi came to my house to fetch me. :) he was scared he would get lost. but he reached way earlier than i expected. went sunway to have lunch. bi damn cute la parking that time. :) he is so going to be my driver after this. :) after lunch went back to his house cause bi didnt want to drive to dinner. his dad dropped us off at sunway around 4 and we waited for his friends. this was a dinner for him and those that worked with him but bi asked me to go. quite fun la when we were eating steamboat. :) spent the whole day with him. :)

i miss him a lot. :(

One Year

2010-05-25T22:39:00.001+08:00

I jux wanna say :

Happy One Year Anniversary Dar!!! ♥

Results

2009-10-20T19:07:00.002+08:00

Got back some papers today, and my results suck. I guess i sort of expected it. I jux might fail my sejarah for the first time ever. Pray hard that my objective is ok. Chemistry was ok, jux some careless mistakes that cost me a lot of marks. Maths was ok, not really high. Add maths. OMG! I can actually pass i think.

So true

2009-10-19T14:32:00.000+08:00

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I really liked this. I need all my friends. :) Friends really last forever, even those you feel that you have lost contact with. They will still be there for you. Thank you so much. I really love you all.

New Layout

2009-10-19T14:21:00.002+08:00

Well, I got tired of my old layout. So, how is this? Ok? I really love cupcakes. :)

Update!

2009-10-19T13:16:00.003+08:00

Well, this blog has been dead since like september. Haven't really been in the mood to blog. Exams and all the stress. Sure, there were lots of breaks for us to study but i didnt. I jux played everyday until the very last minute to study. For the first two days of exam, i was sick. Seriously sick, but my mum jux wouldnt let me stay at home and rest, even though i got the sick leave from the doctor. Miraculously, i managed to sit for the exams. These few days, keep thinking back to the past, have been getting into minor arguments with him over nothing. Really hope it will stop soon. Well, exams are over, but i wouldnt want to get the papers back, cox i doubt my results will be nice. I'm jux praying hard that i dont fail in any subjects.

Went back for my cousin's wedding in penang. She looked beautiful. But somehow i feel that the dinner was weird cox the emcee only remembered the groom's parents. Jux cox his dad is a big doctor so he's so important?

Things a girl wants

2009-09-05T13:03:00.003+08:00

45 things a girl wants but will never ask for.

1 . Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything – only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25-kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!!!!*

THEY MIGHT DENY IT BUT THEY ACTUALLY LIKE
AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE THEM

26-don't lie to HER.*
27-DON'T cheat on her.*
28-take her ANYWHERE she wants
29-text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.*

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.*
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).*
34 . While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Don't EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If
shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE
WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.*
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.*
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you .
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.*
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible*

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her at night to wish her SWEET DREAMS*
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.*
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love her.*
45. sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to
her face and kiss her while sitting on her.

you'll never know when she needs just a lil more love

Sweet Post

2009-08-26T19:01:00.001+08:00

This is what you call A Real Boyfriend
Don't care if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend right now.

Just read this, it will make a difference.

If only everyone could see this and understand it:

When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummie cause she thinks shes
stronger than you
Grab her and dont let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because ten years later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Don't talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whos ass am i kicking baby?"

BUSY

2009-08-26T18:51:00.002+08:00

Life is seriously hectic these days. I know we are currently having a one week break. But i dont think it's enough. Last week was so damn tiring. I need to catch up on my sleep. Exams in less than 2 weeks and i haven't started studying. Skipped class like crazy last week. Busy with this and that. Guess i have to start getting into study mood soon. Or my results will seriously drop.

Before i go, a birthday shoutout to my BFF

Happy Birthday SabrenaLiewWeiLing!!!!

Her birthday is this friday but i wanna wish her now. So i wont forget. I hope you will have a sweet sixteen and dont forget i am always here for you. I love you. =)

2 months

2009-07-27T14:26:00.003+08:00

Well, it was our 2 months yesterday. So,

Happy 2nd month anniversary dar!

I know 2 months is really short compared to those who have been together for like a year? but it's long for me and i hope we will last. A lot of people are saying we wont. I really don't want them to be right. I gave him a present. I put it inside his bag. Without him knowing. He's really damn blur la. I am sure others would have been suspicious. I left a note with the present. If not, he wouldn't have known who gave it.

Today, was kind of weird. Was nervous for oral but Miss Stephanie was absent. 2 periods of physics. Everyone was busy copying the practical. We changed our answers due to Miss Gan Xian Rui's idea of a perfect answer. Recess was kind of a rush. Was busy making plans for the movie outing this Wednesday after getting the report card. I lost my pen. AGAIN! I'm starting to get pissed. Maths was kind of weird cox Mr. Tee started with scolding Teck Sern for lying. Was busy writing the announcement for Quest Sejarah. I didn't know the announcement was going to be tomorrow. Duncan helped me write it. But i don't think they will use mine. Cox i lack a lot of info. I don't know a lot of things. After that was basically hyper la. Somehow started to become down at the end. Cox of some stuff Foo Duncan said. I hate him la. Make me down only.

He cut his hair. It doesn't look that bad. Still kind of cute. I really cant stop myself from getting mad when i saw him being close with her. Ok, i know i have always been getting jealous easily. But, hearing is one thing. Seeing it myself is one thing. Did he ever give a thought that i was there? That i would mind? I really don't like getting jealous over small issues like his. But i cant stop myself. I really don't like seeing my bf close with another girl in front of me. What am i supposed to do? Keep telling myself they are just friends? I cant do that. I guess I'm just insecure. Or I'm just plain jealous. Anyway, IGNORE THIS PART.

2009-07-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that
person..

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need
you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with
guidance and support,

To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be...

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an
end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson,

love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other
relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,

whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.

This was really meaningful. =)

Hectic

2009-07-15T22:47:00.003+08:00

Well, daddy jux went to China this morning. Dont really know how long will his trip be this time, but i hope it's shorter than the last one cox i miss him. Come back faster, daddy!
He's sick. Fever. So he was absent today. He came with the afternoon session, he says is to teman me cox i staying back for duty. But, end up, he teman JiaYong go buy movie tickets. His fever is gone, but he still has a little cough. Hope he gets well soon.
I jux realised i'm gonna have a busy week. Going to watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince tomorrow. Friday i thought i would be free to go Sunway, but Willa jux informed me about the installation meeting. WeiLing and i are working together. AGAIN! =) Damn happy lo know we two together. Hopefully this year's installation will be fun. We are in charge of the food and drinks and we already have in mind what we want. It's jux a problem of budget. Still, i have to go to Sunway. Cox JiaLing will be fetching me to the new BM tuition. I cant wait for the class, if it's as fun as she says.
Saturday, LM interview. As it is going to be 15 on 1, it will take a long long time. Sunday, maybe, maybe going to Tropicana City Mall with Amy. Oh yeah. I forgot the most important thing i havent finished. MPS. The part i'm in charge of, i havent even started it. We dont even know what we're going to do. Maybe that part is gonna be cancelled. Although i hope it wont, there is a big possibility it will, cox there are too many complications. It would be a miracle if we managed to make that part a success.

Next post will be specially dedicated to someone special. Who's my motivator. =)

Moodless

2009-07-12T13:38:00.002+08:00

Well, i cant find a reason for not updating. Guess the only reason is i cant find anything to post? Got my results back. Most of them. This is the first time my results are so low. I really wonder what happened to me? Is it cox i cant cope with all those or something else?

Went back to Penang last last weekend. My darling cousin is going to Switzerland. All of us went to send her off. How touching. Watched Transformers and Ice Age 3 with my cousins. Ice Age 3 was really nice. The dinosaurs are so cute.

Cox of that trip, i missed goin to LM's Camper's Party. I also missed LPS's AGM. All our AJKs have been changed. And Jes got the post she wanted. Gratx dar. Ok, back to Camper's Party. All the groups got a prize. Except Merah, they got two. Hijau got the best teamwork prize. AND, Yee Er got the best male camper. He really deserves it i think.

Miss Lee Hui Hui (our temporary Chem teacher), is leaving on friday. So, our class decided to organize a farewell party for her. Nothing big, jux buy her a present, a card, cake and drinks. Went to Sunway on Tuesday with JiaLing to buy the present. We bought her a big Kuma Kuma. It was damn freaking cute.

Well, the farewell party went quite well. We gave Miss Lee the card first, then when JiaLing came in with the Kuma Kuma and presented it to teacher, she cried. Kang Shyan played the guitar for her and Chee Keen sang 'No Boundaries'. She's a really good teacher. We learnt quite a lot. She even bought us gifts. We'll miss her.

Oh yeah, i almost forgot. S n G will be organizing a Quest Sejarah during August. Amy is the ketua for the project and Jia Yong is her penolong. Somehow, i got the post of setiausaha. Well, i'm not complaining cox i really like that post. We didnt even know there would be an AJK list for this project.

i miss u, dar.

Friends

2009-06-22T15:32:00.003+08:00

To all my friends (even those i havent talked to in a millenium) :

I love you guys a lot and really treasure our friendship. I hope our friendship will last forever. =)

To all my BFFs, sorry if i ignore u guys sometimes, even if we dont talk much anymore, arent that close as last time, but keep in mind you are always my BFF. Now and forever.

2009-06-22T15:08:00.001+08:00

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LM Camp

2009-06-08T12:20:00.005+08:00

Miss the days at camp. I really love all my group members. We were really close during camp.

Galleon

rocks! HueyShin, DangYao, you two are the best penasihat ever! XieThong, KitYee, KaiXiang, YeeEr, Anysia and MayLeng. It was so fun being in the same group as you guys. You guys really made the 3 days fun. ChiYiu, although you couldnt come, it was still fun being in the same group with you.

Outing

2009-06-07T18:30:00.004+08:00

Went to Pyramid with KarYew, KarChin, SiewYee, JiaYong and KaiXiang. Watched Night at the Museum 2. Had lunch at WongKok. We planned to eat at Kim Gary at first but it was fully packed so we changed destination. The movie was kind of nice. Went shopping after that. Bought a purse and a bag. Really love the purse. Went for dinner at Pizza Hut. Reached home late. Sorry JiaYong.

Camp

2009-06-05T17:48:00.001+08:00

Jux came back from camp. It was super tiring but damn fun. Will update as soon as possible. Busy with exams. Havent started studying. Cant go anywhere until dad gets back. So hope he gets back tonight cox i have plans for tomorrow. =)

Update

2009-05-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the dead blog and sorry to everyone who had to put up with my mood swings recently. I can be hyper one second and super moody the next. But i'm NOT emo. Thx for bearing my mood swings. I love all of you guys.

Will update soon bout sport's day. Merah got first for marching. =). But we got last for deco due to some reasons but it's ok d. Had a post-mortem(is this the right word?) for Ulang on friday. I cant really find any words to describe it. But i cried due to some reasons.

Oh yeah. And we got divided into groups for camp. I'm in HIJAU. =) Too bad i'm not in merah. Anysia, ChiYiu, MayLeng, KitYee, KaiXiang, YeeEr and XieThong are in my group too. Xie Thong is the ketua and KitYee is his penolong. I guess that's all for now. Still not in the mood to blog much. Jux updating so i wont get scolded for having a dead blog.

I miss you. :(

Sweet Sixteen

2009-05-02T18:09:00.004+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog for god knows how long. But today is too special a day to miss. =)
Today is the day i'm officially sixteen. Sweet sixteen. A lot of people wished me happy birthday. Some even called me before 12. Thanks a lot. I really love all of u.

Yesterday, a miracle happened. =) I cant believe it's true. But, it is. So i am damn happy.

Well, went to school for the Interact Carnival. My kind mummy, Siew Yee planned a surprise party for me. But Kai Xiang became the organizer. Quite a lot of people turned up. It was fun. They played the games i chose cause it was my birthday. And we used at least 100 ++ for this carnival. All of us wore either white or black. It was like we did it on purpose. But it was just a coincidence.

He reached late. Was kind of pissed already. Then someone told me he might give p. I cant believe he actually thought i would like the other guy. Even if he gave up, i doubt i would like the other guy. I almost cried. ALMOST. My frustration helped me win the balloon darts game. =)
The games are really cute. Especially Shoot the QQ. Thanks JaeHaan and KayZhi for standing there to let me throw. We got a lot of prizes. Me and Yi took the same prizes but she gave the keychain to him. Just so he would have the same as mine.

Went to Pyramid around 12. Bought tickets for Mall Cop. We bought all couple seats. Damn funny la. Something bad happened after that. Made me kind of sad. But it was ok after a while. Waited in McDonald and Siew Yee miaculously appeared when she should have been in Perak. Went into the cinema and watched Mall Cop. It wasnt that bad. Not like what my brother said.

Met June and Sook Fun in the cinema. What a coincidence. Got a lot of presents today. Really like all of it. He helped me carry all my presents. The bear June and Sook Fun gave me kena molest by a lot of people. The dog WeiLing gave was cute too. KaiXiang chose a cute dog weaing a shirt and AnYi and WeiLing liked that dog a lot. Siew Yee mummy and my dear daddy who ffk me gave me a cute pesent. It is meaningful but very expensive. Mummy passed a present from someone to me too. She was a bit like a postwoman at that time. =)

Had lunch in Gasoline around 4. We waited quite long to get a table. The food was not bad. But very filling. After eating, none of us could eat the cake. He brought the cake in. So sweet. Something that i thought only happens in movies happened in real life. Gasoline even played the birthday song when he brought the cake in. I made a wish and I hope that wish will come true.

Thanks to everyone who wished me. Someone unexpected wished me too. But it doesnt affect me as much as it did last year. Thanks to everyone who gave me presents. And all those who bought the coupons for Carnival. Thanks for this party. I really enjoyed it. Lastly, thanks to everyone for this very very sweet sixteen.

P.s. Anniversary has ended. I really miss all the times we spent preparing. We all had fun. I regret not taking a video of our drama. It was quite succesful.

Duty

2009-04-18T16:58:00.004+08:00

Reached school at 9.50 and went to get my stuff from the library. Then went to Kanna with Brandon, Narongjit, Rong Yao, Feng Jie and Yee Er. Somehow, someone got pissed off at me. Maybe it was a misunderstanding. I jux know i ignored him for damn long. Then we went to Amcorp for fun. Kena marah by Brandon and Siew Yee. They force us to say sorry. Drama practice was from 2-4. It was weird. Really weird. I took lots of videos of them rehearsing and some pictures. Videos cant be put up now. Cox everyone will know what our drama is about. All those videos taken during test games also have to be put up after Anniversary.

Freaky picture. I wanted to take his picture but he moved.

Kai Xiang. The leng zai/The famous actor. XD

Emo Kar Yew.

This is specially for Yew Sin. =)

Kai Xiang again.

I took a lot of pictures on both of them. But i'm really tired right now so i will upload them later. =)

p.s. Brandon. See my blog not emo d.

Farewell

2009-04-04T20:41:00.003+08:00

Erm. Gerald is transferring to P1 so it's kinda his last day with us. We asked mr. tee to allow us to do a farewell party for him. It was quite sad.

Our group photo with him. =)

Candid. My photography skills damn cha la. XD Sorry. Unless i get a nicer one i will use this.

Kinda busy with LM stuff and all those. So will edit this post when i'm finally free.

p.s. Wonder will they die of food poisoning after trying it?

Duty?

2009-03-20T13:09:00.005+08:00

Overslept today. Supposed to wake up at 8 but woke up when Kris called. I rushed to school and we started doing the committee list. We planned to finish the background today. But, we decided it is too plain and we wanna change it. So we jux took the past decorations down and we will put everything up tomorrow.
Well, i thought gathering were testing their game yesterday, so i chose today but seems like they changed it. It was ok la. They came to reading corner to test their game. Yi followed me cox she was mad at some girl that said some offensive stuff. You changed a lot you know. I really doubt i can still say you are my friend.
He came. Somehow, he wore pink today. Same like me. I should be happy right? But i'm jux pissed off. I really hate him d. Someone kept talking crap bout us wearing the same type of shirt. I dint want to wear the same colour as him. I dint even know he would be coming. It came as a shock when i knew he was here. I really hate him. He's not that good looking. HAHAHAHA. And he wouldn't even look at me. Not once.

Friends?

2009-03-20T13:07:00.001+08:00

I thought you were true.
I thought we really could be friends forever.
I dint expect you to become like this.

Will edit this post later.

Surprise?

2009-03-07T14:11:00.002+08:00

Today a lot of people skipped school. Still, quite a lot of people turned up. I made plans to have recess with Jes since i thought none of them were coming, but KatherinneOngMangNing came. She passed by my class and asked me to recess with her. Damn cute la her. Miss her lots. Been long since we had recess together. Well, i thought he would skip. So got a shock when i saw him sitting at his place. He passed by my class. FIRST time he passed by my class in this year. He actually said hi to me. After who knows, weeks? of ignoring me. Exams are coming so most teachers allowed us to do revision. But, me n SiewYee wasted our time photostating stuff for the class. I jux realised how selfish people can be. I found back my sugar paper. I remembered i left it in AV 20 minutes before the bell rang for school to end.

Finally

2009-03-06T17:44:00.003+08:00

Finally got it done. My first time as a ketua for Publisiti. I guess i will only feel relieved after the board is done. I hope everything will go ok and it will look nice. If it doesn't, i really dont know what to do. Exams is starting next tuesday and i havent had the time to start studying. Better start now, if not i really will fail.
I guess nothing lasts forever.

Selfish

2009-03-04T17:00:00.002+08:00

So this is how it feels when u know u did everything but someone else got the credit. I knew it wouldnt feel good but i didnt think it would be so sad. I dont wanna seem like some selfish girl who wants her name in everything. It's jux i did almost all of it and it's way more than what he did. Why does he get all the credit. It's so unfair. Yet, do i have a choice? Can i be selfish and say i wanna take credit for this? I dont think so. If i get mad over this, would i seem selfish?

Busy

2009-03-02T17:11:00.003+08:00

Tons of homework and a lot of extra stuff to do made me busy until now. Exams are in less than 1 week and i still haven't studied. I dont wanna be the last. My class all super clever. I'm still wondering should i apply? Or jux go for fun? If i get it would i go? I've been working so hard all these time. I wasn't aiming for that. Can't it wait for a few more years? I dont wanna be slower than everyone.

Should i stop waiting?

Mad

2009-02-25T14:01:00.003+08:00

I'm so freaking angry right now. I tried to be nice. You LOOK nice. But in truth u are not. You taught me something important: Being nice to others doesn't mean they will be nice to you too. I cant believe u did this. You are all about being kind. Is this kind? NO. How could you treat me like this?

Damn mad since i found out yesterday. Poor E-Jia. She had to listen to my rantings for 2 hours. I still cant stop being mad. Didn't have the chance to tell WeiLing until just now. I cant believe i'm still mad. Guess it's my own fault for being so trusting. JunYang heard all my rantings. I didn't know he was behind us. SO near. I hit him in the arm. Haha. I'm still freaking pissed la. I was regretting at first. BUT now, i dont care anymore.

Break Up

2009-02-16T15:54:00.003+08:00

My best friend jux broke up with her boyfriend of 5 months. They still love each other very much. They had to make this decision cox my friend's parents found out and forced them to break up. Why cant parents understand that we are grown ups. We know how to think. We wont do anything wrong. Both of them cried when they decided to break up. They were so sweet. The guy reli love my friend. But they have to break. So sad la. Made me cry too. Why are some parents more open than others? Some wont even mind if u bring ur bf/gf home. Some will force u to break up. Like my friend.

Merentas Desa

2009-02-15T21:42:00.002+08:00

Today is our annual Merentas Desa. Some LM members dint need to go run. I wonder why every year they dont choose our form to help? Me, Yi and Jing ran SUPER slowly. We knew we wouldnt make it so we took our own sweet time. Merentas Desa ended kinda early but the school had to make us wait until 11.30 before announcing the results. Pn. Vivian scared me when she suddenly came up to me and asked me to follow her. Once we got to where the QM teachers were, under the shade, she asked me did i manage to get pass the check points in time. I told her i was running very slowly. As if i could get through the check points in such a short time. It was already a miracle that i ran. Yi n Jing FORCED me to. Turns out, Fiona ran through, but, the teacher dint record her number. She wrote mine down instead. That's why Pn. Vivian was so anxious to find me. She wanted me to be the witness to say i dint run through. Wasted a lot of time there. Yi bu shuang cox i was under the shade. The teachers argued over this a lot of times. In the end, have to write Surat Rayuan. ChangMeng also got disqualified. A lot of ppl got disqualified for the teacher's mistakes. Wasted all their efforts running so fast and getting nothing. Merah got the fourth place. Ungu is currently leading. I had a bet with ZhuJun that Ungu wont win.

Valentines?

2009-02-15T21:26:00.003+08:00

Well, Valentine's Day is nice for couple but it jux reminds all those who are single bout their status. I celebrated my Valentine's with my two best friends. Yi n Ling followed me home. Then we went somewhere near my house to shop. They both complain i give them the wrong info. They say near is within walking distance. But, i still think this place is considered near. I took them walking in the wrong direction. So wasted a lot of 'valuable' time. Then I finally found the right direction. Found a nice clothes shop. The manager is SO nice. She keep finding shirts for us to try. In the end, AnYi bought a dress, a jacket and a necklace there. The manager is so pro in promoting stuff. Then we got to a boutique, the ground floor is for shoes only and WeiLing found a pair she really liked. Mum and dad were punctual. But, we took a detour. Went to the place where it was the last day he liked me and i ended it with arguing. Brought back some bad memories. They were shocked i could mention it in front of my parents. But i guess my parents know i like someone d. My mum only said i cant couple. She dint say anything bout liking anyone. Yi's parents were SUPER punctual. But, they couldn't find my house. They found my house at the exact same time we reached. Yi's mum came down and chatted with my mum. Ling's dad very late. So we online and chatted with some seniors while waiting. I actually complained to my president that i got a lot of essays to write. Ling says i shouldn't. If he really bu shuang, then i dunno d. I'm jux telling the truth. I hope he wont bu shuang lo. Cox i'm like this de. Always say wat i think. I never think of the consequences. I should change this bad habit.

I wonder did he celebrate with anyone?

Updating

2009-02-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

I'm jux posting for the sake of updating. Well, quite a number of things happened since my last post. Almost 2 months passed d. Erm. I got into 4S10. None of my best friends same class with me. But i'm in the same class with JiaLing. I dint really know this girl well though we have known each other for 3 years. Being in the same class kind of made us best friends. I really love this girl la. Got quite close with XianRui and KaiXin too. I guess being in the same class does that. CNY holidays was kinda fun. Though he kinda ruined it for me. Lucky for me, i got used to him ruining my mood so it's not such a big deal anymore. Joined a lot of new clubs. Haha. LM got projects for us form 4. I dint reach my target for GERKO day. Me, Jes, PiLian n JiaYee are in UlangTahun. Ling n Yi in Gathering. I really hope i wont fail badly this time. Now we are doing the signature drive, the first time i tried so hard to get all the signatures. I MUST WIN HER. Pure science is kinda tough. I wonder will i be able to cope with the stress. I guess studying in A class for so many years helped.

P.S. Jialing, i update d. Haha.

Orientation

2008-12-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

Today's orientation day for the form 1s. I reached late cox i got no transport. Then we had to arrange the chairs as usual. My plan was to go out with Yi and Jing after the duty. But Jing said she was sick and dint come. I was kinda sick too but i still insisted on going. In the end, i was SO sick that i couldnt go. I havent been sick for a long time so i guess my immune system too weak d. I cant believe i'm starting the new year with being sick.

HAPPY

2008-12-30T13:31:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! I'm SO happy. I got 8 As for PMR. I cant believe it. Jess n i so scared before the results come out. Cox the headmistress keep stalling. She keep telling us the percentage all those. Yi, Ling, me n Elly so scared. Before going into the hall we gossip to distract ourselves. We all so scared la. Jing dint turn up until the last minute. She got 8 As too. So happy la all of us. Yi too. May also. Ling kinda disappointed. I kinda get the feeling i dont deserve to get 8 As. I dint put in as much effort as those who didn't. I'm still really happy though. Cox i did wat i promised. I kinda wish he's here to share my happiness. Mayb going out with Yi, Ly n Jing tomorrow. Her (I cant say her name) bf is so cute.

Mad

2008-12-26T12:47:00.002+08:00

I think i've gone mad. After being in penang for one whole month, i suddenly miss eating a lot of food. I can randomly think of food that i want to eat. Lolx. And all of those food i haven't eaten for quite a long time. I think i'm going to go crazy soon.

Results

2008-12-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

Results are gonna be out next tuesday. I think by next monday i'll be scared and cant sleep. Ling went to Melaka. On christmas day, but she went to a party or something organized by her church before leaving. I'm gonna miss her. She'll be back by monday. So she'll be there to get her results on tuesday. I hope i can get the results i desire.

Update

2008-12-23T12:46:00.002+08:00

I havent been blogging for ages. It's cox i kinda lost interest in blogging d. Nothing much to blog about. Well, for the past month, i've been in penang. I had lots of fun there. Watched lots of movies with chia. It's still kinda weird without ler there though. I miss her lots. And, i got over HIM during the one month in penang. I finally got over him after one year of waiting. The sad part is, i fell for someone. Someone unexpected. I always thought no one could replace him in my heart, but this guy, somehow he managed to get into my heart. I dint notice it but by the time i did, he kinda replaced him d. I dont really get what i'm typing. The important part is, i got over him, but i fell for another guy, one who will hurt me too. I guess i'm jux stupid, i'm forever falling for the guy i shouldn't.

While i was in penang, i recieved a message that was kind of unexpected. Mun Heon told me i am Ketua Publisiti for GERKO 2009. I was like are you serious? Cox i dont think i can be an AJK. Take stock check for example. They jux gave me a post as Ketua Maintenance, and what happened? Disaster. I really shouldnt have a post. But the fun part is WeiLing is my penolong. LPS never let us work together. Cox when we work together we end up talking more than working. Jes says mayb cox the seniors knows the both of us wont work unless we are with our friends. XD

Results should be out next monday or tuesday. I'm really scared now. I doubt there would be anyone in our year who isn't scared. I hope i can get the results i want. I hope my results are god enough to get into Science stream. I dont really like science, but i dont really have a choice.

TAGGED

2008-12-21T19:45:00.003+08:00

Tagged by weiling

Name : Sabriel Liew Bi Hui
Sisters : 0
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 5
Height : 160 , i think .
Where do you live : PJ
Favorite drinks : Any drinks except alcohol
Favorite breakfast : Eggs?
Have you ever been on a plane : Ya
Swam in the ocean : NO!
Fallen asleep in school : Rarely
Fell off your chair : Ya
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Erm. Cant remember
Saved e-mails : Lots
What is your room like : Depends on my mood
What's right beside you : Hand phone
What is the last thing you ate : Errr.

Q: When did you cry last : Cant really rememeber.
Q: Are you a friendly person: I hope.
Q: Do you have any pets : Had.
Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now : Thailand
Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now? : Ya.
Q: Do you sleep with the TV on? : Sometimes.
Q: What are you doing right now? : Blogging n chatting.
Q: Have you ever crawled through a window? : Never.
Q: Can you handle the truth? : Sometimes.
Q: Are you closer to your mother or father? : Father.
Q: How many people can you say you've really loved? : 4?
Q: Do you eat healthy? : Not really.
Q: Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: No.
Q: Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : More than once.
Q: How often do you go to church?: I'm not a christian.
Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : my best friends or my cousin.
Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: mostly loud
Q: Are you confident?: Not very.
Q: Favorite Quote: Dunno.

Q: Things I was doing 10 years ago..
1.Cant think of any.
Q: Things on my to-do list today.
1. online. 2. watch tv. 3. sleep.
Q: 5 snacks I enjoy..
1. Chocolate 2. Lolipop 3. Ice cream 4. Sweets 5. Biscuits?
Q: 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire.. (By Order)
1. I think i'll decide when i really become a billionare.
Q: 5 of my bad habits..
1. Hot tempered
2. Lazy
3. Love to sleep
4. Use a lot of money?
5. Talk a lot
Q: 5 places I have lived in..
1. my house
2. Grandma's house
3. Chia's house
4. Resorts
5. Cousin's house
Q: 5 jobs I've had..
1. Student
2. Sister

Q: 5 people I tag..

1. chia
2. yen
3. ying teng
4. elly
5. jane

Tagged by weiling

Instructions:

BOLD the statements that are true on you.
Italicize the statements that you wish you were true.
Leaves the fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I'm 170cm tall.

I don't know what I want at this moment

I'm not happy.

I hate my friends.

I hate my life.

I hate my grades.

He drives.

I'm bored of driving.

I have a white handbag.

I love dancing.

Shopping is bullshit.

I have a tattoo of a star.

I got my navel pierced.

I have friends that take drugs.

90% of my friends smoke.

I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.

I'm studying Fashion.

I have a bussiness running.

I hate cartoons.

I hate someone who bitched about people behind their backs.

I have 10 Guess handbags.

I buy CLEO every month.

My parents don't know about my blog.

I wanted to be a fashion designer.

I love rock emo bands.

I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.

I'm a rebel.

I'm starting to like wearing dresses.

I don't believe in love.

High school's filled with drama.

My parents have faith in me.

I've bought shoes this month.

A blogger bitched about me before.

I hate sports.

I heart Italian food.

I hate meeting new people.

I hate nail polish.

The mother bear gives me hugs

People should start appreciating me.

High school was the worst time of my life.

I have red hair.

Mid valley is my second home.

I'm a guy.

I'm scared of my Biology exam.

I hate vacations.

We'll last.

I believe in long distance relationships.

I'm going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.

I've robbed an old lady.

I'm starting to like applying make-up.

I was a tomboy.

At times I think I still am a tomboy.

I love bitching about people behind their backs.

I still have a best friend.

I hate copy cats.

I hate suprise parties.

I hate planning parties.

I'm hot.

I'm a sinner.

I've got a DS light.

I have a Wii.

I can live without music.

Video games are a waste of time.

I miss the father bear.

I love being in love.

I know how to cook.

I have 100% freedom.

Boys are assholes.

I hate Math.

I love horror films.

I'm happy with what I have.

I slept in my parent's room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.

My old friends keep in touch with me.

I don't read newspapers.

The news is such a waste of time.

Blogging is a waste of time.

I hate animals.

I can't live without make-up.

I curse like a pirate.

I'm happy with my 11 years old car.

I hate people that are smart.

I love Apple Juice.

I can't drink for nuts.

I believe that every in their teens have lost their virginity.

I've got a new phone.

I'm going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.

I love swimming.

I think I'm fat.

I love my friends and family.

I'm giving this homeworks away to :

1. chia

2. yen

3. ying teng

4. elly

5. jane

tagged again

2008-12-21T19:38:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Sabrena

The tag victim has to come up with 15 different points about his/her perfect lover.
Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

1. he is taller than me.
2. he is funny.
3. he knows how to play the piano ( i dunno how, so i wish he knows).
4. he is smart.
5. he is gentle.
6. he is caring.
7. he loves me despite my flaws.
8. he is kind hearted.
9. he is sporting.
10. he is honest to me.
11. he makes my heart skip a beat whenever i see him.
12. he will always be there for me.
13. he knows when to comfort me.
14. he really means it when he says he love me.
15. he can stand my temper.

I tagg ,
1. chia
2. yen
3. nikki
4. elly
5. jane
6. carmen
7. jia ling
8. wei wei

Tagged again

2008-12-21T19:33:00.003+08:00

Tagged by weiling

1. What is your name ? ( please give one answer )

♥ BiHui

2. What is your nickname ? ( please give one answer )

♥ Sabriel

3. Three books which you often read ? ( please give three answers )

♥I cant remember

4. The things gained from blogging ( please give four answers )

♥Erm. I dont know.

5. Your favourite food ? ( please give five answers )

♥ Anything i think.

6. Favourite songs ? ( please give six answers )

♥ Too many.

7. Places that you wish to go ? ( please give seven answers )

♥Dont really have an answer for this.

8. All-time fovourite dramas, movies, or animes ? ( please give eight answers )

♥ One Tree Hill
♥ Twilight
♥ Heroes
♥ Tsubasa
♥ XXX Holic
♥ Taking Five
♥ cant think of anymore

9. Items that you wish to obtain ? ( please give nine answers )

♥ New Phone
♥ Camera
♥ New Computer
♥ Ipod
♥ Teddy bears
♥ Tops
♥ Dresses
♥ Heels
♥ Errr.

10. You want to pass this tag to ? ( please give the names of 10 friends )

1. Chia
2. Yen
3. Nikki
4. Ying Teng
5. Elly
6. Jane
7. Carmen
8. Jia Ling
9. Eugene
10. Wei Wei

Tagged

2008-12-21T18:55:00.003+08:00

Tagged by: Jia Yee, Chi Yiu n Wei Ling
Rules:
*1. Those who get tagged must answer the question about themselves.
*2. At the end of the post, tag 10 people except the person who tagged you(tagger).
*3. Continue this game by sending to other people.(refer to rule No.2)

Time: 1919
Name: Bi Hui
School: Catholic High
Elder sisters: 0
Younger sisters: 0
Elder brothers: 1
Younger brothers: 0

Favourite liquids[drinks]: Soft drinks
Favourite consumables[food]: Pizza
Favourite place to sleep: My bed

Flying?: If i can
Swimming/Diving?: I dont even know how to swim
How much friends in MSN?: 200++
Couple?: No
Loved ones?: Him, family, frens
Get kicked on the butt: No
Allergic?: No
Gastric?: No

Whole fortune: My stuff, my friends, my family
Age of marriage?: Havent thought about it
Childrens wanted?: 2?
Age of death?: erm. 100
Animals in house?: No
Longest fingernail ever kept: Not sure
Sleepmate? : My bear?
Wanted birthday present : Anything
the end? : not yet

Q: In your dream, a god tells you that you are a billionare in your dream world and gives you a wish. What would you wish for?
A: health i think

5 things to do :
-Eat
-Sleep
-Play
-Watch tv
-Read

5 jobs that I am doing right now:
-thinking
-chatting
-brainstorming
-playing
-blogging

10 persons to tag [the hardest part]:
-chia
-katherinne
-elly
-jane
-carmen
-jia ling
-kian seong
-pey jing
-amanda
-kellye

Tagged

2008-11-13T20:26:00.002+08:00

Tagged by lao gong gong SabrenaLiewWeiLing

The person who tag you is?
WeiLing

Your relationship with him/her?
friends since form 1, BFF since form 2.

Your five impressions of him/her?
Optimistic, nice, sweet, cute, happy

The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Being there for me

The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
Can't remember. Too much d. XD

If he/she became your lover, you will?
We're not les, btw, she has someone d.

If he/she became your lover, a thing he/she need to improve is?
Nothing i think

If he/she became your enemy, you will?
I hope she won't, i love her too much.

If he/she became your enemy, the reason is?
Some stupid reason that make us argue, as usual.

The most desired thing you want to do for he/her now?
Hang out with her.

Your overall impression of her/him is?

Great friend.

How do you think people around you feel about you?
Not really sure. Dont think i wanna know too.

The character you love of yourself?
Loves to laugh?

On the contrary, the character you hate yourself is?
Get angry easily

The most ideal person you want to be is?
No one else, i'm happy to be myself.

To people who care and likes about you, say something.

I love you guys and thx for everything.

Pass this quiz to 10 people whom you wish to know how they feel about you.
1. Elly
2. Wei Ling
3. Jane
4. Chia
5. Kian Seong
6. Carmen
7. Jia Yee
8. Katherinne
9. Yi Wen
10. Yi Yin

Who is no.6 having relationship with? [Carmen]
Someone studying in our school. =)

Is no.9 a male or a female? [Yi Wen]
Female.

If no.7 and no.10 are together, will it be a good thing? [Jia Yee][Yi Yin]
I dont think they will be together.

What is no.2 studying? [Wei Ling]
Erm. Dunno?

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? [Jane]
Last friday

What genre of music does no.8 like? [Katherinne]
Not really sure.

Does no. 1 have any siblings? [Elly]

Yes, an older brother.

Would you ever woo no.3? [Jane]

If i am a guy.

How About no.7? [Jia Yee]

We're close friends.

Is no.4 single? [Chia]
Ya.

What is the surname of no.5? [Kian Seong]
Chong .

What's the hobby of no.10? [Yi Yin]
Not sure.

Does no.5 and no.9 get along well? [Kian Seong][Yi Wen]
Dont think they know each other.

Where is no.2 studying? [Wei Ling]
CHS

Say something casual about no.1? [Elly]
She's my BFF. Known her since form 1, love her.

Have you ever tried developing feelings for no.6? [Carmen]

She's cute, but no.

Where does no.9 lives? [Yi Wen]
No idea

What colour does no.4 like? [Chia]
Blue

Are no.5 and no.1 best friends? [Kian Seong][Elly]
NO

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? [Jia Yee]

Mayb. XD

Best Friends

2008-11-02T01:06:00.002+08:00

A friend will bail you outta jail, a best friend will be sitting next to you in the cell saying either, "We really screwed up," or "That was fun!"

A friend will walk into your house without ringing the doorbell or knocking, a best friend will walk in and yell,"I'm home!"

A friend will call your parents by their first names, a best friend will call them Mom and Dad.

A friend will tell you that your a great singer even if you're terrible, a best friend will tell you that you suck.

A friend will give you a shoulder to cry on when he breaks your heart, a best friend will go up to him and say, "It's because you're gay, isnt it?"

A friend will tell you if you boyfriend was cheating if she saw that he was, a best friend will go right up to him in the middle of kissing the girl he was cheating with and say, "Oh hey the test results came back and they didn't look so good." Then turn to the chick, "Oh you might not want to be kissing him."

PMR Ended!

2008-10-22T20:35:00.001+08:00

PMR finally ended. I stopped using the computer about a month before. Not really into blogging anymore. Lost the interest. I hope i can lose the interest towards him this easy.

Science and Maths Society

2008-07-07T15:11:00.003+08:00

Today perhimpunan.
Jing dint go for LM duty.
So we sat in front.
First time in this year.
Then after singing those songs n the Rukun Negara.
A prefect came n asked Chia Loon, Choon Yit, Chee Keen n Nyit Kang to go in front.
He said they were talking when they should be singing.
They all took off their QM badges.
I dint understand at first but Ling explained to me later.
Some emcee came out n asked the president of the Science and Maths Society to give a speech.
They said this week is Science and Maths week.
The president's speech was damn funny.
He actually said stuff like...

We are angry with the government.
We are angry with the politicians.

Lolx.
Doesn't he know what he's supposed to say n what cant be said out loud.
Then they asked Pn. Lee to give her speech.
Then a bunch of teachers plus Pn. Lee came out to cut the ribbon.
It was like the opening ceremony f a new shop.
They wanted to make the smoke effect using dry ice.
But the smoke was too little.
Plus they were too far from the teachers.
Pn. Lim was mad of us cox we dint take her seriously.
Two guys came to our class during Pn. Lim's period.
Asked for wakil LM.
Jess n I were like damn blur.
Wakil LM?
Oh.
Us.
Then those guys asked us to go to dewan to get extra tables n chairs.
Jess forgot her badge.
Fiona remembered her.
Surprisingly.
Boon Wei dint wanna give us the table at first.
He said we dint need an extra table.
Jess n i were like debating with him.
Then Boon Wei asked us to follow Fiona to basement.
Fiona asked us what we wanted.
We said one table n one chair.
Fiona gave us after listening to our reasoning.
Went back to class.
Carmen wants to play a game.
She's the mummy.
Jess's her husband.
I'm her daughter.
Chong Sheng's her son.
Khang Yee's her son-in-law.
May is my aunt.
Couldnt find Yi during recess.
She was still in bengkel.
Their class wasnt done yet.
Ling and I went for recess first.
Yi only appeared when we were finished eating.
Bought another badge.
Blue colour.
Looks cute when u put them together.
Ling joining the amazing race with Shi Yi, Pey Jing and Zi Ling.
Cox Xiong Yan cant stay.
Carmen cried after recess.
We all did all we could to console her.
Finally she stopped crying.
During Bm,
the whole class was tired.
Pn. Chee let us relax for once.
Carmen mummy asked me to write down my goals.
That i hope to achieve in this year.
I wrote ten.
It's really quite fun.
Writing down your goals on a piece of paper.
Ling teman me walk to bus stop then she went to find Shi Yi they all.

Saturday

2008-07-05T15:02:00.002+08:00

Reached school around 9.10.
Was supposed to reach bout 9.
But mum made me late,
as usual.
Yi reached earlier.
We wasted bout an hour at the canteen.
Amy was having a match so she couldnt go with us.
This is the first time ever i went to MV n actually wanna go back to school.
We found some pink clothes.
But Yi said too childish.
Fine.
It's her choice.
Not mine.
Went back to school around 11.
Chatted for an hour.
Amy's practice ended.
She came over n chatted with us.
Today form 4 LMs have to come for interview.
Saw Suet Ping crying.
I dont understand why they have to make you cry when they interview u.
Waited for our parents outside.
Rushan was in school too.
Turns out QM were having meeting in DK.
Yi's bro went cc.
Lolx.
Her bro dint wanna pick up her phone.
Mayb he dint hear it ringing.
He came back to school bout 12.
Yi's dad came bout 12.15.
Left me alone.
Luckily dad came in 5 minutes.
LPS had their browney n theory exams today.
Saw a lot of juniors outside AV.
They dont wanna take their exams.
Lolx.
U have to take it sooner or later.
Y dont u take it earlier?

=)

2008-07-04T14:46:00.000+08:00

Reached skul earlier than normal today.
I think i'm gonna catch a cold.
Everyone in my car is sick.
Felt like i had a fever.
So asked Jing teman me go PBSM.
Went back to class to put back our bags first.
Then went to toilet with May.
Yoon Leen was in the PBSM room.
She twisted her ankle.
The form 1 was busy attending to her.
So i sat down to wait.
The form 1 got me a slip to stay in the PBSM room for bout 2 hours.
Cox of a fever.
Pn. Joyce gave me permission to stay there until recess.
But too boring if stay in PBSM room alone.
So i went back to class.
I was intending to skip Pn. Yap's class.
But she dint come in for first period.
Haiz.
Still failed to skip her class.
Tried to sleep in class.
But my class is too noisy.
Ended up chatting with May n Jess.
Ling got a permission slip to leave class at 10.50 to go duty.
Few ppl were chosen.
Amy asked us to go Jaring's AGM if we want.
I was planning on going.
If we could.
Cox we need to wait for Amy.
But Jared said cannot go.
Went to DK to get our LM pictures.
Ling n I look weird in the picture.
Ling wanted to go makan.
So went out makan.
Saw a few Jaring members who dint go AGM.
Wanted to buy sweets to eat during duty.
But couldn't think of any sweets to buy.
Walked back to school.
Went to my class to find Amy.
Her AGM still havent end.
Some ppl were outside.
They were voting for the post of president.
Going to MV tomorrow with Yi.
She needs to find a pink shirt to wear to Cheer 2008.
Went back to library to duty.
Qian Wei asked me to duty MM.
I dont even know wat i'm supposed to do.
So i kept asking the seniors wat can use wat cannot use.
Ling was watching over the juniors exam.
After that went out.
Met up with Elly n Kath.
Chatted with Elly.
Long time dint get to chat with her d.

Lm duty.

2008-07-03T14:27:00.000+08:00

Today LM form 3 got duty.
We need to move the long long benches from the dewan to the tapak.
Straight away after perhimpunan have to start duty d.
More n more Lm appear.
Then Fiona said continue duty bout 12.40.
We have to move those benches for the phototaking session.
It looked like it was gonna rain.
Luckily it dint.
If not i cant ponteng Pn. Yap's period to go take photo for LPS.
We wasted about an hour lining up.
Then it started drizzling.
Editorial board say change the time.
Ting San said she will write it on the board.
The rain continued until when we had to move those benches back to dewan.
We moved those benches in the rain.
We were all wet.
But, no choice.
Still have to do.
Then,
wanted to find someone.
Ling said something that made me damn mad.
Sorry.
It wasn't ur fault.
U dint know i was sensitive to that word.
Ate Domino's with Yi, Amy and Ling.
Then went back to study in the library.
Finished up some tuition work.
Cant leave it until last minute anymore.
Came out to wait for my car around 4.
Left Ling alone in the library.
My car came at 4.30.
I wasted half an hour at the bus stop.
Not considered as wasted.
Had fun with Shi Yi and Pey Jing.
Pey got mad at us cox she thought we went to talk to HIM.
Dont worry,
we didn't do anything.
We jux went up n looked around.
We were jux trying to make u jealous.
We dint think u would take us seriously.
Sorry la.
Went to tuition.
Kemuel showed up.
Mayb cox Marcus is here?
Who knows.

Blogthings

2008-07-02T16:42:00.001+08:00

Your Love Is Represented By a Pink Rose

You see love as something that should be light, fun, and whimsical.

People fall in love with you easily. And you tend to fall out of love easily!

You express your love through attention and shared experiences. You love people more than they realize.

What Rose Represents Your Love?

You Are Totally Normal in Love

When it comes to love, your experience is pretty standard.

You love like most humans love. You hurt like most humans hurt.

You understand relationships and romance well.

Why You Are Normal in Love

You are normal because you believe a long distance relationship can work.

You are normal because you don't kiss on the first date.

Are You Normal in Love?

Your Heart is Feeling Safe

Right now, all is good with your heart. And you intend on keeping it that way.

Whether you're deeply in love or just looking, you know that your heart will be taken care of.

You never risk your heart too much, but you don't hold it back either. You know who to trust your heart with.

Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little too comfortable

Your current outlook on love: Calm and future oriented

Your love life will improve if you: Treat other people's hearts the way you expect yours to be treated

Watch out for: Taking the people you're dating for granted

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility.

Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships.

Whoever you love should be your best friend.

And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question.

Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you

Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

What Is Your Love Based On?

Happy Birthday.

2008-07-02T16:36:00.002+08:00

Today is Shu Ling's birthday.
I have known her since standard 2.
We were best friends for 5 years.
Not so close now.
Still friends.
Jux not that close.
Anywayy.
Happy Birthday Shu Ling.
Hope u like the keychain me n anyi got for u.

Cried for results again.

2008-07-02T14:56:00.005+08:00

Jane finally came to school d.
Reached school quite late but still went to the library to find weiling.
Saw HIM holding a tray of stuff.
Walked faster cox dint really wanna see him.
Saw anyi n amy.
Anyi teman me go library.
Walked until half way then saw weiling d.
She scolded me for coming so late.
Tomorrow LPS got photo taking session.
10 am.
Means i'm skipping recess n a little bit of classes.
LM got duty too.
Form 3 only.
After perhimpunan.
Oh.
I know why he was holding that tray of stuff d.
Prizes for the winner of the badminton match.
He got some prizes.
He's not as pro as he says.
After perhimpunan supposed to have hair check but nothing happened.
PJPK.
Choon Yit n Khang Yee dint reply all of us.
We still felt guilty.
Damn fun.
Pn. Tan wanted us to play badminton or basketball.
I told her peishe is teaching us how to do yoga.
Peishe don't want.
In the end Pn. Tan herself teach us yoga.
She actually fell for my stupid excuse.
Learning yoga was quite fun.
Went back to class.
Zhu Jun is in calyx.
Tan Keat Sim was waiting.
She dint even care that maverick was in our class.
They saw our msgs.
Choon Yit dint know wat we were saying sorry for.
Khang Yee lazy to reply.
Me n May damn gek.
Lim Ser Kien reported to Pn. Chee.
Pn. Chee wanna c Khang Yee n Choon Yit.
Omg.
We felt super guilty when we heard that.
Couldnt really finish my nasi lemak during recess.
Couldnt stop feeling guilty.
We decided to tell Pn. Chee the truth.
Went down with them after Geography.
Pn. Chee wasn't at her place.
Decided to come again at 11.30.
Did our corrections for KH until 11.40.
Went to find Pn. Chee.
Told her the truth.
We changed it a bit.
We said May had gastric.
She was quite relieved to hear us tell her the truth cox she dint really think those two will ponteng.
He passed by with his bunch of friends.
He's stil giving me hope.
I think so.
They called Pn. Chee a lot of names.
Including ah ma, ah jie and auntie too.
Quite funny hearing them call her mum.
Went back to bengkel and continued doing our correction.
After kh went back to class for chinese.
Pn. Yap gave us back our paper 2.
She told us our weaknesses before giving us back our papers.
She said i did wrong in both sides.
Gong liao zuo wen n zuo wen.
Gong liao she said my expansion of the points all wrong.
Zuo wen cant write bout love.
This is the first time i wrote such a long essay for gong liao.
She actually told me all my expansion of the points are wrong.
The lowest marks in class is 33.5.
I had a feeling it would be me.
It was.
I tried hard to stop myself from crying.
My total is 68.
1 mark more than last term.
When i saw weiling i couldn't hold back my tears anymore.
Saw Jie.
Gave her the notes she wanted.
She asked me y was i crying.
I jux answered results.
Then saw someone i dint wanna see at the moment.
Saw Elly they all.
They were concerned bout me.
Sorry i cried.
It's stupid.
Thx for ur concern.
A lot of ppl saw me crying.
Quite funny now that i think back of it.
I dont think i cried so hard for Sejarah.
Weiling was consoling me.
I think she used the wrong way.
The more she said, the harder i cried.
I know it's stupid to cry for results.
I cant help it.
If i dint write but love i could have got an A for once in chinese.
I only got 12 marks out of 30.
Pn. Yap dint even mark my essay.
She wanted to use my gong liao as an example for the other students.
This is the second time i cried for my results.
First time is Sejarah.
I seriously studied for it.

I only got 58 marks.

Shopping

2008-07-01T19:04:00.002+08:00

Today Jane dint come to skul again.
So i went t find Elly during recess.
Made wei ling angry.
Sorry ya lao gong gong.
I know u too well liao.
Recess with wawa, Elly, Weiling, Anyi n Ejia.
Oh yeah.
Today Anyi n Rushan 4 months.
So long d le.
After recess 2 periods relief.
Pn. Yap absent.
Carmen n i went down to canteen to buy food.
Damn hungry.
We didn't get caught.
After that Khang Yee wanted to go hand in the books to Miss Gan.
We asked him to help us buy food.
He went with Choon Yit.
He came back after the bell rang.
He returned Carmen, May n Jess their money.
We thought he dint buy.
Turns out he n Choon Yit kena caught by guru disiplin.
Pn. Lim Ser Kien.
Omg.
We felt so sorry.
They kena caught cox of us.
We all wanna send them msg to say sorry.
Before going mv.
Saw HIM.
He ffk me on saturday.
He still call me like nothing happened.
Went mv after that with Elly.
She bought a bag.
Damn nice wei.
I bought a birthday present for shuling.
We not very close d.
Still,
she was once my best friend right?
Muz buy present for her de.
I bought a cute keychain for her.
Bought a birthday present for someone whose birthday falls in September.
Early right?
I dunno wat to buy.
We shopped until 3 something then went outside to wait for bus.
That stupid bus dint come after 10 minutes?
We took a cab back.
So long dint go shopping with Elly d.
Really miss my lao gong la.
Had so much fun shopping today.
Saw someone i dint wanna see in mv.

tagged again

2008-06-25T14:16:00.002+08:00

tagged by wei ling =)

8 Things I'm Passionate About.
1. Him
2. My family
3. My girlfriends
4. My handphone
5. Blogging
6. Shopping
7. Playing
8. Sleeping

8 Things I say Or Do Often.
1. Shit
2. Go die la
3. Sei lo
4. Laughing
5. Gossiping
6. Chatting on the phone
7. wth
8. Missing him XD

8 Things I've Recently Read.
1. Sejarah
2. Science
3. Geografi
4. Maths
5. Kemahiran Hidup
6. Malay
7. Chinese
8. English

8 Songs I Could Listen To Over And Over Again.
1. tearsdrop on my guitar
2. when you look me in the eyes
3. irreplaceable
4. with you
5. because of you
6. take a bow
7. bye bye
8. inconsolable

8 Things I've Learned This Year And Last Year.
1. trust your friends
2. study hard
3. sejarah is stupid
4. admit your faults
5. put in all you have got and you will get what you worked for
6. control my temper
7. don't trust blindly in gossip
8. appreciate all you have

i tagg ,
1. elly
2. yee sim
3. hui qing
4. nikko
5. carmen
6. jane
7. wei wei
8. jia ling

Tagged

2008-06-25T14:03:00.002+08:00

Tagged by my lao gong gong xD

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
erm. i would be damn sad n cry for the whole night n blame myself. i think. i would be so disappointed if he did so. =( oh yeah. i will slap him.

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what will it be?
All of my dreams? No la. I seriously wish that he'll fall for me again.

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
I will think of that when the time comes.

#4 Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
I'm never sure of anything. XD

#5 What's your ideal lover like?
erm. someone that makes my heart beat faster when i see him.
he doesn't necessarily have to be good looking cox if u love someone u love them for who they are.

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being love by someone?
both have their pros n cons. but i choose being loved.

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love.
depends on how deep my feelings are.

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what will you do?
Jux continue liking him? I wont be the third person in a relationship.

#9 Is there anything that have made you unhappy these days.
Ya. My bad results.

*No. 10 is missing.

#11 Is being tagged fun?
Quite fun.

#12 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
erm. working?

#13 Who are currently the most important thing to you?
my family. my girlfriends. Lastly, HIM. =D

#14 What kind of person do you think the person that tagged you is?
wei ling. she's my lao gong gong. she's fun to hang out with.

#15 Would you rather be single but rich, or married but poor.
married but poor . money cant buy happiness.

#16 What's the first thing you do every morning?
off my alarm.

#17 Would you give all in relationship?
yes. if i seriously like the person.

#18 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick.
the one i love the most.

#19 What type of friends do you like.
my friends now. they are the best.

#20 What type of friends do you dislike?
bitches . back stabbers.

erm , i tagg ,
1. Elly
2. Jane
3. Nikko
4. Hui Qing
5. Wei Wei
6. Jia Ling
7. Amanda
8. Carmen

Get Well Soon

2008-06-24T13:47:00.001+08:00

My wawa aka Katherinne Ong Mang Ning skip school 2 days d...
Damn miss her ah...
She's sick...
Sick until absent for 2 days d...
See her sick face... XD
Hope she will get well soon...
Miss her so much...

Tagged by Ling

2008-06-23T17:15:00.004+08:00

tagged by Wei Ling (:

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal questions, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
erm... after i find my mr. right?

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
Japan or Korea

3. What's your favourite thing to do?
Hang out with my best friends

4. Do you think money can buy love?
Of course not la. Love isn't something you can buy.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
I have lots of dreams. But, seriously? I hope he will fall for me again.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Don't think so. I would die of hunger n boredom.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Things that are important to me.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
I will think of that if i win it.

9. How would you describe the person u like *at the moment*?
He's an asshole ! LOL , kidding kidding .

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
good points??
Erm... Wei Ling is a really great friend. She is cute. XD. And she's my lao gong gong.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
someone that makes my heart skip a beat when i see him.
someone that makes me miss him more if i see him, miss him when i dont.
someone that makes me do stupid stuff regardless of the reward.

12. If you could rewind time would you?
erm. i would choose form 1. I did quite a number of mistakes.

13. What's your ambition?
Last time teacher. Now, too many to count.

14. If you can teleport once, where would you go?
Beside him?

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Everything. XD

16. If you could undo doing one mistake in the past, what would it be?
Too many. But, i would like to undo what i did last year.

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
My temper?

18. What music have you been listening to recently?
Take a bow.

19. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could?
Turn back time.

20. What is the thing u wanted to get recently?
Handphone.

i tagg ,
1. Carmen
2. Celine
3. Chicky
4. Crystal Yap
5. Elly
6. Jia Ern
7. Jia Ling
8. Ying Ran

Something New

2008-04-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

Well…

Woke up damn early today…

Went Ipoh for Ching Ming…

Traffic jam when we were nearing the cemetery…

I slept the whole journey…

Tired ma… =)

We reached about 7…

We actually reached earlier than my other relatives…

We were looking at the gravestone…

Not sure did I use the wrong word…

My grandfather passed away 5 years before my brother was born…

He bought this piece of land when his best friend died…

So the gravestone only had two of my older cousin’s name…

Then my grandmother passed away bout 3 years ago…

Those people that came to do something…

I don’t know what…

They asked me to write down my name…

My bro n my form 5 cousin’s too…

When we went to bury my grandmother’s body,

I noticed the gravestone was different…

Her name was now in gold…

Meaning she has passed away…

They carved my name, my bro’s n my cousin’s name onto it…

Mayb cox our surname is Liew…

Don’t worry…

I’m not dead…

They carved it at the side…

Well…

As everyone knows,

My Chinese name is damn freaking hard to write…

It has so many strokes,

For god’s sake!

I myself dint know how to write my own name until I was in standard 3…

I know that’s all crap…

I’m getting to the point soon…

As I said,

We reached so much earlier than the others…

My bro was looking at the gravestone…

He commented that my name was the most particular…

It had so many strokes that the person couldn’t possibly carve it with the same size as the other names…

I noticed it a long time ago…

Hey…

It’s my name…

How could I not notice my name was particularly big?

I was like…

You like to state the obvious hor?

It’s so damn obvious my name is so special…

Then,

My dad or was it my mum?

Cant recall…

Well,

One of them said:

Of cox la,

Her name comes from Taiwan le…

Both of us,

Me and my bro,

Were like so confused…

Huh?

What are they talking bout?

Mum or dad explained…

Before I was born,

Mum went for the ultrasound thingy…

I think it’s that…

I jux know it’s to check is the baby healthy n guess the gender…

I swear I don’t know what happened!!!

They actually told my mum I was a boy!!!

What the hell?

Cox of that Oh, so clever doctor,

Or was it my own fault?

Don’t care…

Let’s jux blame it on the doctor shall we?

Mum and Dad and almost everyone were thinking of good names for me…

They thought I was a guy,

So they only thought of names for a boy…

Who knew?

When I was born,

I was a girl…

I dint have a name…

So sad,

I’m going to cry…

Lolx…

They were all confused (I think)…

They had been expecting a boy and a girl came out…

And they had not even thought of 1 good name for a girl…

So,

Mum’s good friend…

Should be considered good friend la…

Went to Taiwan,

Or was she already in Taiwan?

Who knows?

And found someone to pick a good name for me…

And count the strokes I think…

Not really sure…

I jux know my name actually comes from Taiwan…

And I only find out now…

Why dint they tell me earlier?

Haiz,

To think if my bro dint make that obvious comment I would still be in the dark…

Stupid ultrasound…

Can’t be trusted…

Chia…

I don’t think I told you this before hor?

I knew everything a long time ago…

Except the part bout my name…

That’s new…

I don’t really like cemeteries…

They have a spooky feeling…

Is it only me?

Then my stupid dad go scare me…

I was holding the money they were going to burn…

And I was walking here and there…

Then dad suddenly says:

You don’t hold that and simply walk around la…

Later the ghosts follow you ah…

They say I beg you la…

Give me la…

Omg…

Though I know its jux crap,

Jux dad trying to scare me,

But I’m still scared…

I hate ghosts!!!!

Hate!!!

Emo Post

2008-04-07T19:00:00.002+08:00

Emo post rite?

Sorry, can’t do anything bout it…

Several deaths have happened around me…

My niece died…

She was only 8 months old…

She wasn’t even born…

1 more month and she would be born…

Jux dat 1 month,

But God wouldn’t let her live…

Although she was never born,

I never really got to know her,

But she had a place in my heart…

Not much,

But there still …

Hearing her death made me realize her place in my heart…

I had been waiting for this niece,

A niece I would treat as my own little sister…

Jux when we all thought she was gonna be born soon,

God took her away from us…

Everyone in my family had been waiting for this little baby to be born,

Everyone including her 2 year old brother…

Everyone is sad to know her death…

I jux can’t imagine how her parents are feeling right now?

Their pain mux be worst than mine…

Especially my cousin…

Those who had their babies for 3 months only already cried like hell when they lost their baby…

What bout her?

8 months…

She has been carrying this baby for 8 months,

8 whole months,

Everything was fine until now,

The doctor suddenly tells her that the baby’s heart has stopped beating…

She mux be suffering…

I am sure of that…

It’s impossible to lose something that close to u and not suffer…

Her husband can’t be by her side too…

However,

She has to stay cheerful…

She can’t break down…

She still has a 2 year old son to take care of…

Well…

I said several deaths happened right?

There’s another…

My tuition teacher died…

Cikgu Yushak…

He’s been teaching me Malay since form 1…

He’s one of the best teachers’ I have known…

He was a great teacher…

Had a great memory…

He was a joker…

Used to tell us jokes in class…

He even tolerated us when we were listening to mp3s…

Where can u find another teacher like that?

The week before…

He even reminded us to do our homework…

This week,

I went to tuition as usual…

We changed to another room…

I thought Cikgu Yushak was absent…

Who knows?

The person-in-charge of the tuition centre came in and told us that Cikgu Yushak had passed away…

He also told us that Cikgu Yushak had prepared work for us…

Cikgu Yushak prepared a karangan for us to write…

The title was ‘How I felt when my grandmother passed away’…

Ironical isn’t it?

It’s like he knew what would happen…

Cikgu Yushak was a great teacher…

He did his best to guide us in writing karangan…

I doubt I will ever forget this teacher…

I was gonna cry,

But I managed to hold back my tears…

Two deaths have occurred to the people around me during these holidays…

Two deaths in jux three days…

How can my post not be emo?

I’m done with being sad…

It’s useless being sad…

I still need to continue my life…

But from today onwards,

I think I will start thinking the negative way… =)

Correction:

My teacher dint pass away...

That stupid person-in-charge say until not clear...

Then he say wat our teacher is a good teacher those crap make me think teacher really passed away...

I was so shocked when i saw my teacher the following week...

Turns out is his relative pass away...

Stupid Flight

2008-04-07T14:18:00.000+08:00

Don’t know why mum went to book tickets for Firefly for our trip back to KL…

The original time was supposed to be 7.30 …

Then they sent mum a msg saying the flight would be delayed until 7.45…

Don’t know y,

Mum saw it was 1945…

But when she read it out she said 1745…

Which was in less than an hour from now…

Make us all rush to pack our bags and stuff…

When we were done,

In the car on the way to the airport,

My cousin asked her was she sure…

Mum gave me her phone to check the msg…

I saw it was 1945…

Mum said she read out 1945 and we were the ones who told her 1945=5.45…

We corrected her…

She read out 1745 which was 5.45…

Wasted our time so we turned back and went back home…

We reached the airport around 7…

Mum received another msg saying that the flight would be delayed to 8.45…

1 hour more only so never mind…

We went to eat Kenny Roger’s for dinner…

Then went to check in at 8.15…

The guard asked me where I was heading…

I actually answered him Penang…

Swt…

I was already in Penang and I wanted to go to Penang…

I realized my mistake and said KL…

Lolx…

So yu…

Waited until 8.45…

They said delayed until 10.00…

No choice la…

Have to wait…

OMG!!!!

There was a super cute guy behind me…

Judging from his chat with 2 other girls…

I guessed he was either 17 or 18…

I didn’t wan to overhear them…

They were too loud… =)

They were talking bout how many As they got for SPM…

He got 10As,

That’s if I didn’t hear wrongly la…

Then don’t know why they chat bout pubs…

He said he uses a fake id to get in…

One of the girls asked him…

Aren’t you of age d?

Her cousin (I think) answered her…

He’s jux 17 this year…

Going to be 17…

We finally boarded the plane at 11.45…

Delayed for 4 hours ah…

I had to wait for 4 hours in the airport…

The guy sat behind me…

The 2 girls sat a few rows behind him…

The air stewardess started demonstrating how to use the lifejacket…

And told us bout safety precautions…

I was a bit scared…

But after their explanation I was even scared…

Scared of what?

Scared that the plane will crash…

That was stupid thinking right?

But life really too fragile d…

U don’t know when u might die…

I was thinking bout what would happen if I really died…

Thought for quite long…

What are the things that I would regret if I died before doing it?

There’s quite a lot actually…

That’s when I started to think you should live life to the fullest…

I finally started to calm down when we reached Subang Airport around 12.45…

After getting off the plane,

I turned around and saw him waiting for someone…

Should be waiting for the girls…

I was correct after all…

He really was waiting for them…

He’s so cute and so gentleman…

He’s almost perfect…

Lolx…

That’s impossible rite?

But he is perfect le…

I don’t really know him but he’s quite gentleman from my observations…

Who cares if he’s perfect or not?

It’s not like I will still see him after this…

Don't Understand =(

2008-03-19T06:20:00.000+08:00

I don’t understand…

I really don’t…

Y mux this bottle of stars appear now?

I’m not complaining…

I jux wanna know y now?

Y couldn’t it have appeared earlier…

Jux when I had given up hope,

Given up hope on both him and this bottle of stars appearing…

Y does everything happen jux when I had given up hope?

This bottle of stars broke around 2 months ago…

As I said,

The breaking of this bottle symbolized the breaking of my heart…

The pieces of stars symbolize my heart…

It was broken into pieces more than 2 months ago…

I had jux given up hope on him…

I gave up hoping to get this bottle of stars again a few weeks ago…

On the same day that I had given up hope on him,

Elly called me to tell me she had bought the bottle of stars that I wanted…

That I had been searching for so long…

How sweet of her…

Love ya lao gong…

As she said,

We are not lesbian…

Jux really good friends…

We have known each other for three years…

Jux celebrated our anniversary last Saturday…

But what does this mean?

I don’t know…

Everyone advised me to give up…

Ok,

I have started to accept the fact that nothing is ever going to happen between us…

I am starting to give up…

And this bottle of stars reappears…

Can this be considered as lost and found?

The bottle of stars that I broke was important to me…

It symbolized my heart…

My heart had been broken and now another bottle of stars appears…

Does this mean my heart isn’t hurt anymore?

No way…

The bottle of stars broke…

My heart broke too…

This new bottle of stars can only be a replacement…

It’ll never be the same…

Never have the same meaning…

Not anymore…

The difference between these 2 bottles are 1 is blue and the other is white…

Even if I manage to find blue stars to change with the white stars…

It’s still another bottle of stars…

It’s not the same one…

A heart that has been broken can never be the same as before…

Maybe this means it’s time to move on?

No matter what,

I still wanna say thx to Elly for finding this bottle of stars for me…

Thx lao gong…

Though the meaning is completely different,

This bottle of stars will still be very important to me…

Cox it’s your present to me… =)

Stupid Flight

2008-03-19T06:18:00.002+08:00

Don’t know why mum went to book tickets for Firefly for our trip back to KL…

The original time was supposed to be 7.30 …

Then they sent mum a msg saying the flight would be delayed until 7.45…

Don’t know y,

Mum saw it was 1945…

But when she read it out she said 1745…

Which was in less than an hour from now…

Make us all rush to pack our bags and stuff…

When we were done,

In the car on the way to the airport,

My cousin asked her was she sure…

Mum gave me her phone to check the msg…

I saw it was 1945…

Mum said she read out 1945 and we were the ones who told her 1945=5.45…

We corrected her…

She read out 1745 which was 5.45…

Wasted our time so we turned back and went back home…

We reached the airport around 7…

Mum received another msg saying that the flight would be delayed to 8.45…

1 hour more only so never mind…

We went to eat Kenny Roger’s for dinner…

Then went to check in at 8.15…

The guard asked me where I was heading…

I actually answered him Penang…

Swt…

I was already in Penang and I wanted to go to Penang…

I realized my mistake and said KL…

Lolx…

So yu…

Waited until 8.45…

They said delayed until 10.00…

No choice la…

Have to wait…

OMG!!!!

There was a super cute guy behind me…

Judging from his chat with 2 other girls…

I guessed he was either 17 or 18…

I didn’t wan to overhear them…

They were too loud… =)

They were talking bout how many As they got for SPM…

He got 10As,

That’s if I didn’t hear wrongly la…

Then don’t know why they chat bout pubs…

He said he uses a fake id to get in…

One of the girls asked him…

Aren’t you of age d?

Her cousin (I think) answered her…

He’s jux 17 this year…

Going to be 17…

We finally boarded the plane at 11.45…

Delayed for 4 hours ah…

I had to wait for 4 hours in the airport…

The guy sat behind me…

The 2 girls sat a few rows behind him…

The air stewardess started demonstrating how to use the lifejacket…

And told us bout safety precautions…

I was a bit scared…

But after their explanation I was even scared…

Scared of what?

Scared that the plane will crash…

That was stupid thinking right?

But life really too fragile d…

U don’t know when u might die…

I was thinking bout what would happen if I really died…

Thought for quite long…

What are the things that I would regret if I died before doing it?

There’s quite a lot actually…

That’s when I started to think you should live life to the fullest…

I finally started to calm down when we reached Subang Airport around 12.45…

After getting off the plane,

I turned around and saw him waiting for someone…

Should be waiting for the girls…

I was correct after all…

He really was waiting for them…

He’s so cute and so gentleman…

He’s almost perfect…

Lolx…

That’s impossible rite?

But he is perfect le…

I don’t really know him but he’s quite gentleman from my observations…

Who cares if he’s perfect or not?

It’s not like I will still see him after this…

Emo Post

2008-03-19T06:17:00.001+08:00

Emo post rite?

Sorry, can’t do anything bout it…

Several deaths have happened around me…

My niece died…

She was only 8 months old…

She wasn’t even born…

1 more month and she would be born…

Jux dat 1 month,

But God wouldn’t let her live…

Although she was never born,

I never really got to know her,

But she had a place in my heart…

Not much,

But there still …

Hearing her death made me realize her place in my heart…

I had been waiting for this niece,

A niece I would treat as my own little sister…

Jux when we all thought she was gonna be born soon,

God took her away from us…

Everyone in my family had been waiting for this little baby to be born,

Everyone including her 2 year old brother…

Everyone is sad to know her death…

I jux can’t imagine how her parents are feeling right now?

Their pain mux be worst than mine…

Especially my cousin…

Those who had their babies for 3 months only already cried like hell when they lost their baby…

What bout her?

8 months…

She has been carrying this baby for 8 months,

8 whole months,

Everything was fine until now,

The doctor suddenly tells her that the baby’s heart has stopped beating…

She mux be suffering…

I am sure of that…

It’s impossible to lose something that close to u and not suffer…

Her husband can’t be by her side too…

However,

She has to stay cheerful…

She can’t break down…

She still has a 2 year old son to take care of…

Well…

I said several deaths happened right?

There’s another…

My tuition teacher died…

Cikgu Yushak…

He’s been teaching me Malay since form 1…

He’s one of the best teachers’ I have known…

He was a great teacher…

Had a great memory…

He was a joker…

Used to tell us jokes in class…

He even tolerated us when we were listening to mp3s…

Where can u find another teacher like that?

The week before…

He even reminded us to do our homework…

This week,

I went to tuition as usual…

We changed to another room…

I thought Cikgu Yushak was absent…

Who knows?

The person-in-charge of the tuition centre came in and told us that Cikgu Yushak had passed away…

He also told us that Cikgu Yushak had prepared work for us…

Cikgu Yushak prepared a karangan for us to write…

The title was ‘How I felt when my grandmother passed away’…

Ironical isn’t it?

It’s like he knew what would happen…

Cikgu Yushak was a great teacher…

He did his best to guide us in writing karangan…

I doubt I will ever forget this teacher…

I was gonna cry,

But I managed to hold back my tears…

Two deaths have occurred to the people around me during these holidays…

Two deaths in jux three days…

How can my post not be emo?

I’m done with being sad…

It’s useless being sad…

I still need to continue my life…

But from today onwards,

I think I will start thinking the negative way… =)

Happy Birthday

2008-03-14T15:45:00.002+08:00

Didn't update for a long time so nidda wish some ppl now...
Happy birthday to Katherinne Ong Mang Ning...
Sorry i couldn't go for ur party...
This girl has the most relationships with me...
She's my dad,my boyfriend,my jie,my wawa,she's also my best friend...
I think that's all bout her...

Erm...
Next is Wong Zi Ling...
Her birthday falls on White Valentine's...
Can u believe it?
Happy Birthday gal and Happy White Valentine's too....

Happy White Valentine's to everyone...

Second Chances

2008-03-14T15:29:00.003+08:00

Life is too fragile,
too short for you to have second chances...
Do what you wish to do,
while you have the chance...
Cherish what you have now...
Live life to the fullest...
Life is too short for you to waste...
Don't regret only when you have lost it or you did something wrong...
Most people don't realize how important something is until they have lost it...
By that time it's already too late...
You might have lost it forever...
You might not get a second chance...
Some people are lucky enough to get a second chance...
Those who do,
won't let what they once lost slip through their fingers again...
Unless they are stupid...
Some people aren't so lucky...
They spend half their time regretting,
wishing they had a second chance...
Wishing they could start over again...

*Will I have a second chance?

Headache

2008-03-01T15:43:00.001+08:00

My head’s going to burst…

I can’t stand it anymore…

Well…

Let’s start from the beginning shall we?

Today LM take picture…

I didn’t think he would go…

But he did…

They say time can fade away your feelings…

Why does it seem like I like you more with every passing day?

My jie

His friend X

Him

Story

- Start -

Ling say he didn’t admit he like See Ying Bin also…

I think he like another girl d…

Not sure…

Couldn’t find out…

Goes up to X and him when they are in the library…

She doesn’t want him to hear so she pushes him away…

Eh… X… Does he like See Ying Bin?

Ask him yourself la…

You like See Ying Bin is it?

Yes…

Second time…

No…

Yes or no?

No…

Then who do you like?

Why you wanna know?

I help my friend ask…

Who’s your friend?

Do I know him/her?

Yes…

Jie describe a bit lo…

She didn’t want to say who ma…

LPS de…

Form 3 this year…

Who knew…

I only know 3 form 3 LPS only…

Bi Hui, Jia Yee and Chi Yiu…

Chi Yiu sure out d de la…

Jia Yee not interested in him also…

Sure Bi Hui de la… (I think they own self guess de this part…)

Before Jie admit is me…

Bi Hui very cute de…

Her face looks like baby…

I wanna pinch her face… (Don’t know real or not)

Then Jie admit is I wanna know de…

Then I don’t know what they talk bout la…

Monday give u an answer…

Ask Bi Hui join netball la…

Ok…

I will tell her…

- End -

You know when I find out?

At night ah…

Jie also found out he changes target every month…

Jie

Tonight call me…

Got something important to tell you…

What?

He knows we know each other d?

Ya…

At first I thought is cox I was talking to Jie…

Didn’t think too much…

Before that…

Planning to go out to eat with Elly they all de…

Then saw him and Chi Yiu…

Ask Amy ajak Chi Yiu go eat too…

Then I ask Chi Yiu only they two?

Jared le?

Chi Yiu say don’t know…

Then I and Wei Ling walk in front…

Then we met Jia Yee…

Ajak Jia Yee go eat too…

Then don’t know when Jared appears…

He went to find Jared…

Then him, Jared and Chi Yiu disappear…

I decided to go pay for gathering first…

Aiya…

Cut to the main points la…

When we went to eat, he wasn’t there…

Chi Yiu and Jared eating with a bunch of guys’ next door…

Jared didn’t realize he was gone…

Didn’t see him lo…

Before 4, I and Wei ling came out to get signature so saw him…

He was with Suet Ping…

Went back library duty…

Then 4.20 leave went wakil stor find Amy…

Saw Suet Ping there…

Then waited for Amy until 4.50…

While I was waiting for dad,

Saw Jared and him…

I wanted to act dumb…

Like I didn’t know they were there…

They talked to 2 guys at the bus stop…

After that Jared say bye to me so couldn’t act dumb anymore…

Sei Jared…

Every time also ruin my plan de…

Before seeing them,

I was planning to write that essay for Pui Yee…

After they passed by I started to write that essay…

*I swear I’m not perasan… It was real…*

The 2 guys that talked to Jared were looking at me…

Now that I think of it…

They looked at me when Jared and him were talking to them…

Then Man Ning’s mum came…

She gave me a few coins to go call dad tell him don’t need to come…

Used quite a long time…

Stupid phone…

Then,

*Again I swear I not perasan*

Man Ning’s mum was waiting for me a bit after the bus stop…

That means I would have to pass by those two guys…

One of the guys said…

Tomorrow need to come for netball practice ah…

He was speaking so much more louder than he needed to…

It was so damn obvious he wanted me to hear that…

Or coincidence…

Didn’t think much…

When I was in the car…

Started thinking…

Then at night found out about Jie’s conver with him…

OMFG!!!

I was so damn freaked out…

He knew already?

Why the hell did I find out so late?

No wonder that guy at the bus stop speak so loud la…

Everything makes perfect sense now…

I had been planning to come to school tomorrow anywayx…

I had confirmed everything with Amy and an yi before I found out he knew d…

Couldn’t back out d…

Reached a few minutes after 7.30…

Told Amy bout what I found out yesterday…

He reached around 7.55…

Jux when I was walking towards QM room…

I saw him when I turned around…

It’s like fate won’t let me meet him…

A lot of times these kind of things happened….

Called Teck Seang…

His match should end around 12 so I ask him come back school…

Wanted to gek someone…

He says he only can reach bout 1…

So I changed my leaving time to 1.30…

I was so scared he would go back before 1.30…

But Amy says he and Jared will come back after eating to merayau-rayau in school…

Had a long chat with an yi…

Our original plan was to study today…

But we ended up…

In Amy’s words,

Merayau-rayau around the school…

Lolx…

Saw Rushan, Choon Yit, and Nicholas they all…

They also merayau-rayau around the school…

Amy left around 9…

Oh yeah…

Gave Jared an early birthday present…

Something damn surprising happened today…

Lolx…

I actually caught a ball…

OMFG!!!

Usually, the ball will slip through my hands…

It happened after walking back from QM room…

A girl dropped the ball and I jux caught it…

Like I was so used to it…

LOLX…

I think I have ball phobia…

After Amy left,

Did something stupid…

Shouldn’t have done it…

Gave Jared a packet of sweets…

I ask him to share with them…

I thought he didn’t hear me…

He didn’t say anything…

I repeated it a few times…

Then that stupid Jared suddenly go say…

Oh! I know d! Not my birthday present also…

Then he walk over there and say…

Bi Hui belanja us…

Jared’s words were directed towards him…

Then I don’t know why…

But I turned and saw him use something to throw X…

Then I saw the packet of sweets in his hand…

I damn gek ah…

Then Jared took An Yi’s phone…

An Yi chased him for a few minutes to get her phone back…

I jux sat there and went through my contact list…

I wanted to find someone to help me…

I don’t know if I’m thinking too much…

But,

You know there are plants between the pondoks right?

He walked until he was near the plant then he suddenly turned around and went to find X…

He gave me the feeling he wanted to talk to me…

But he gave up in the end…

Am I thinking too much?

They had a few matches…

Ended bout 15 minutes before 11…

They were planning to go eat McD…

Then Rushan called An Yi…

He asks An Yi go out makan…

An Yi ask me to go too…

Then Yi told me she heard them say she ask Bi Hui come wor…

Never mind la hor…

Damn funny wei…

We jux walked out of school lo…

I ask An Yi call Rushan ask him will they mind if I go.

Rushan say no…

Then we went there…

Yi sit beside Rushan…

Then we left to go back to school…

Merayau-rayau again…

Would you have asked me to go eat with u all if I didn’t leave?

Don’t think so…

Told Yi quite a lot…

Don’t worry…

It’s all my personal stuff…

Even if she spills it out also never mind…

Sms Jared…

They still at amcorp…

Jared asked me what time I going home…

I hoped so much that they would come back before I went home…

But my dreams won’t come true…

Now I think is you won’t come back as long as I haven’t gone back…

There was still bout 20 minutes…

Rushan they all play Frisbee…

Yi and I sat at sports centre there…

5 form 1 boys were playing football…

Yi and I zat them…

They were so damn daring la…

Not scared of seniors de…

I don’t know what I should do…

I really like you…

I wanted to keep this liking a secret…

You might ask why?

1 simple reason…

You don’t like me…

Another reason is…

I don’t like the way your friends look at me…

It’s like I’m a prisoner…

Maybe I’m not…

But they give me that kind of feeling…

You are a popular guy…

Who knows how many people are your close friends?

It’s like I can’t do anything wrong…

Like I am being watched…

Do you know how scary that is?

My friends don’t look at you like this do they?

Why are they like this?

What did I do to them?

You told them I like you?

I don’t like this kind of feeling…

I cried when I said this…

Is it wrong to like someone?

Or is it jux cox the person I like is u?

Chi Yiu and Jie both said you want me to join netball…

Why?

Why can’t you ask me to join yourself?

Can I know why?

If it was you,

I might join…

You are always like this…

You look so confident with yourself 24/7…

But you are totally different when it comes to a girl you like…

That’s what made me doubt you…

You weren’t yourself…

You said you would wait…

You said you were serious…

I told you if you don’t want to wait its ok…

You said you seriously wanna wait…

I jux didn’t know the most you could wait for was 3 weeks…

Why did you make me fall for you before giving up on me?

Jux when I was about to say I like you too…

Did you ever like me?

Or was it all jux a game to you?

Why couldn’t you jux tell me you didn’t have any feelings towards me anymore?

Why did you have to let me find out myself?

I wanted to start being friends first…

My wish finally came true…

But it came true with a price…

The price was you…

When will you ever turn around?

And realize I’m still waiting for you?

The most you can wait is 3 weeks…

I have been waiting for 3 months…

3 whole months…

Going to be 4 months soon…

This might be the first time ever I like someone for so long…

Wait for so long…

Monday is the day I’m going to get an answer…

I know the answer will never be me anymore…

It was…

Or mayb it wasn’t from the start?

But I still hope so…

No matter what,

Promise me something plx…

Plx be happy with whoever you choose…

Your happiness matters the most to me…

I know Elly will be scolding me by the time she reads this…

Mayb everyone that reads this will be scolding me stupid…

But I tried to give up…

I really tried…

I can’t…

I already used up all my strength to give up on someone last year when I decided to keep my feelings towards him in my heart and give you a chance…

That was the day we argued and my whole world turned upside down…

One of my friends once said…

No matter what,

You will still have some feelings for the person you last liked…

The only way to really give up is to like someone else…

In doing so,

You are actually putting your feelings on that person onto someone else…

Mayb that’s what happened to me?

My feelings towards that someone were all put on you?

Is that even possible?

Mayb it is…

I jux know I damn bu shuang you and X de…

Last time…

Cox you all come into library every day and you two very noisy…

Every time I duty DI I also choose Fiction…

Cox less people go there…

But you two go there everyday…

I don’t like to scold people…

I hate being DI…

Plus you two looked damn scary so I didn’t dare scold you two…

But I remembered you two…

I don’t know if you two remembered me or not…

Happy Birthday

2008-02-25T13:32:00.005+08:00

Not much time to post...
Nidda concentrate on my studies...
Well...
Cut things short...
Will post as soon as possible...
Exams coming soon...
Mux study!!!
=)
Erm...
Jux wanna wish:
-Pui Yuee (Sweet Sixteen Gal) 22/2
-Jared (Happy Birthday Gor) 24/2
-Chi Yiu (Sweet Fifteen Jie) 26/2
-Kay Chong (You're officially eighteen!!!) 27/2
XD...
The rest are in my other blog...
I dunno why but that post is longer...
Oh yeah...
Good luck to ex form 5's who are getting their results this thursday...
Good luck to every student who are taking their exams in these two weeks...
Lastly,
Good luck to myself...
I am sure i will need all the luck i can get...
So if you are viewing this blog...
Means you are someone close to me...
Can you please wish me luck too?
=)

Happy Birthday

2008-02-15T16:59:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to my dear cousin!!!!

Chia....

You are officially fifteen....

Did your wish come true?

I still haven't done the thing i promised to do...

I will do it soon...

I promise...

Maybe sooner than you expect...

XD...

Valentine's Day

2008-02-13T14:11:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day...
Ya Jing says she going to buy chocolates to give to her friends...
I liked this idea...
Ya Jing buy chocolate...
I buy sweets lo...
Tomorrow i gonna be Santa Claus...
Lolx...
Oh yeah...
Elly, Jane && Pink's Valentine's present is more special...
After school...
Elly told me she saw you standing outside 3C1...
I thought it was cox of X...
But Elly repeat C1...
Then i started thinking who studies in C1...
Why the hell would you be standing outside C1?
I saw Shwu Pui...
She told me you had a fight...
That's the only thing on my mind right now...
Who did you have a fight with?
Why?
For one moment i felt like smsing u...
Wanted to ask you...
Wanted to know whether you were hurt?
But i won't...
Cox i can't let you know i still have feelins for you...
Sending such a msg would be like telling you i like you...
No wonder you looked angry when i saw you after school...
I thought I started to have feelins for YYY...
But when i heard you had a fight i started worrying bout you...
More than i worried bout YYY....
I think YYY is sick...
Cough...
I wanna quote something meaningful Elly said:
男生只会向不把他们放在眼里的女生现殷勤。。。
If that's true...
Then i think that's the case with you...
Elly tell me don't so zhu dong...
Always say hi to guys when i see them...
She says i should wait for them to say hi...
My horoscope says there are more important things for me to worry about...
So i shouldn't waste my time worrying about emotional problems...
What's the important thing?

New target

2008-02-13T13:48:00.002+08:00

It started when Elly and I were talking on the phone...
At first it was jux a joke...
Jux for fun...
I didn't think it would really become true...
I really starting to have feelings for him liao...
I changed my place with may yan...
So I'm almost beside him...
That was not the reason I changed my place ok...
We started to be friends...
Something that never happened in the past few weeks...
He overheard me venting out my anger on PPT...
He wanted to know why we were angry at her...
I didn't feel like telling him...
But...
He kept begging...
Plus he already heard most of it...
He jux wanted to know why...
He says girls are scary...
Can bu shuang someone and still act like nothing happened...
I took the chance to ask him does he still have feelings for her?
He say a little...
He say last time got a lot...
I even asked him why does he like her...
His answer was is there a reason why you like someone?
I said no...
I answered his question myself...
Told Elly bout this the next day during merentas desa...
She says the way he say still got a little feeling means his feelings toward PPT is indescribable...
Then the day before CNY holidays...
There was still a few minutes before recess...
I was talking to Ya Jing bout new year plans...
I planned to visit Pn. Chee on Monday to get ang pau...
Lolx...
He joined in our conversation...
I asked him did he want to go?
He said he already had plans on Monday...
He was going to go watch cj7 with his friends...
I said i wanna go...
He said come la...
They need to ask more girls to go too...
Now...
I feeling a bit regret i went...
Cox that argument between me and my friends...
I think made him bu shuang me jor...
He really damn scary...
Although he bu shuang me...
When he need to borrow stuff from me...
He can act like nothing happened...
And he says girls are scary?
I think guys are even scary...
They bu shuang someone...
According to 1 of my friend...
But they can still hang out with him...
Watch movies with him...
Like nothing happened...
Before this i really liked the kind of friendship guys have...
They can all hang out together...
One whole gang...
They can jux chat for a few hours(I think...=)...
They won't argue over things that girls argue....
Pn. Yap says she chooses to group with boys during assignments...
Cox she says boys make decisions easier...
They won't waste time like girls...
Today Tuesday d...
Today i didn't even talk to him...
Not one word...

Quite Sad && Hurt

2008-02-13T13:38:00.002+08:00

There's still a lot to say bout my chinese new year holidays but i will post it later...
The important things that happened were:
Well...
My cousin sort of had a chat with him...
She asked him does he like me...
Guess what was his answer?
Very easy...
One word...
No...
The part that angered me most was he actually said I knew you were going to ask that...
How the hell would he know?
He can read my cousin's mind?
Through a computer screen?
I don't think so...
Erm...
Monday...
I jux reached home at 2 in the morning...
Had plans to go mv with Elly,Pink && Peyjing...
Some stuff happened and we had an argument...
But...
As usual...
We were as close as last time...
Like nothing ever happened...
That's the way it is...
I dunno why...
No matter what happens...
No matter how we argue over little things...
We will still remain best friends...
I think the guys bu shuang me...
I not perasan...
Elly...
I really wanna tell you...
Arguments happen cox people have different point of views...
They never think from the other person's point of view...
Maybe you know how i feel...
Maybe you don't...
Nobody can truly know how anyone feels unless they stand in that person's place...
Experience what that person is going through...
No matter what...
You will always be important to me...

Worst Day Of My Life

2008-02-01T18:39:00.000+08:00

Didn’t really feel like going to school…

Cox Pink still angry…

But mum sure won’t let me ponteng de…

Yay….

Ya Jing got come to school…

She broke her leg or something…

So sad…

Jared says M going to mv after school…

Gek sei me ah…

Cox Elly and Jane going to mv after school too…

Then during perhimpunan we found out we had to go get our numbers for tomorrow…

Waste our time only…

Elly copy the answers for her maths while queuing up to get the number…

Damn long le the line…

After that we went back to class…

Wei Ling haven’t get back yet…

She passed my class…

She was like smiling but don’t dare to smile…

I looked to her side…

ZF was beside her…

She thought of the name ZF…

Makes sense in a weird way…

Yer…

Today YYY didn’t come…

Oh yeah…

LM got an inventory form that needs to be filled up and given back to Pn. Chia by today…

Jes Cee say I got white hair liao…

I old liao…

Lolx…

I thought I could skip from wiping the windows but KK say cannot…

So sad…

Turns out…

We don’t need to wipe the windows…

She wants us to sweep the floor…

WTF la…

Like this also don’t let me go…

I went downstairs to find Elly but couldn’t find her…

Went back upstairs…

Saw her…

She pei me go give Pn. Chee sign and give back to Pn. Chia the inventory form…

Elly and Jane going mv after school to buy sports shoes…

To wear tomorrow…

Damn wu liao wei…

Becca ask us tell Pink she not eating for recess…

I didn’t feel like eating…

So jux bought a packet of drink…

Pink not angry liao…

She got stay back but she going tuition…

After recess we going science lab…

Jo Fan scared of Pn. Joyce liao…

He made sure everyone was ready before letting us go down…

He say last week Pn. Joyce scold him…

Saw M and XY…

Literature got a lot of homework ah…

Stupid school…

Change timetable again…

This is our 3^rd timetable liao ah…

I prefer our 2^nd timetable…

I don’t like this timetable…

Last period was maths…

Cik Gan ah still left a few minutes also mux give homework de wor…

Wei Ling was outside my class a few seconds after the bell rang for school to be over…

We went into library…

Saw Jared and Chi Yiu…

I asked Jared which 1 he involved in?

Gathering or Inter-Games?

He involved in Inter-Games…

I damn shuai…

I say like this then I sure don’t wan come liao…

Lolx…

Then he say he going to ask Zheng Kang come…

Then I say I sure come…

Wei Ling say she don’t want come…

We went out…

Saw YYY on the way out…

I ask him why ponteng?

He say too tired liao…

Today all PBC members absent…

All also too tired liao…

Couldn’t find Elly and Jane at bus stop…

So we walked back…

Then we saw Amy, Pey Jing, Shi Yi, An Yi, Elly and Jane…

Oh yeah…

I saw M too…

After that we pei Pey Jing find Shi Yi they all…

Then we have lunch with them…

Damn bu shuang the way Amy treat Pey Jing you know…

I couldn’t stand it anymore…

I scolded Amy…

I asked her why couldn’t she forgive her?

Why mux she treat her like this?

She acted blur…

She actually asked me who was I talking bout?

Everyone knew who I was talking bout…

Then she ask me is it Pey Jing?

I say if not…

I ask her why she can’t forgive her?

She said she doesn’t even know her how can she be angry?

How can she forgive her?

Pey Jing cried you know…

She was really hurt…

I knew she was really hurt by the way Amy treated her…

That’s why I scolded Amy…

Mayb I shouldn’t have done so that time?

But I couldn’t stand it anymore…

Amy…

I know you are reading this…

I wanted to add something de…

But an yi was there so I couldn’t…

I could forgive an yi even though what she did to me…

What did Pey Jing do that you can’t forgive her?

If you are really going to act as if you don’t know her……

After lunch Wei Ling and I went back to school…

We were late…

Then Qian Wei let us out to have lunch…

Saw Teck Seang…

He was helping someone get signature…

I also want…

Oh yeah…

Teck Seang knows M and Zheng Kang de…

He say Zheng Kang make him lose the match…

Lolx…

We went to sports centre to see if the squash coach got come or not?

It was jux a waste of time…

We two duty Counter de at first…

Then I had to duty DI…

That stupid Chin Kok Yong ask me go scold 3 Indians…

I kena marah pula…

Teck Seang knows Wen Han de oh…

Wen Han really likes Willa…

After mopping the floor…

Qian Wei let me duty Counter…

Saw Yong Liang…

He ask us get 1 LM form 5’s name, class and sign…

Teck Seang gave me back my committee list…

He say can’t help…

Gek sei me ah…

Then I kena marah by Qian Wei…

Around 4.30 we left the library…

Wei Ling called her dad…

She say her brother in canteen so we go find him…

We saw Albert…

I went to get his sign…

He say get the 4 sign below him only find him wor…

Y bad things happen consecutively?

Wei Ling and her bro were supposed to go to bus stop de…

But her father was already waiting outside school…

I walk to bus stop alone…

When I walk through the lorong,

I saw a flasher…

So damn scary wei…

I think he saw my reaction change…

I was so damn scared but I wouldn’t give him that satisfaction to see me scared…

I forced myself to remain calm and act like nothing happened…

But I quickened my pace…

I reached bus stop then I saw Nicholas sitting on the pedestrian bridge…

He was wearing outdoor clothes…

He looked quite cute…

My sai lou lai de le…

Of cox cute la…

Lolx…

Damn sien oh…

I alone only…

Then I wait until 4.45 then I went to call Man Ning’s mum…

Turns out she’s at airport…

She waiting for plane but the flight delayed liao…

She don’t know how to contact me…

She ask me ask my dad come fetch…

So I called my dad to come fetch me…

Before I went down to call…

I saw Shuxuan and Kai Lin…

I was debating whether I should get their sign first or call first…

I chose call…

Cox call more important…

But by the time I finished my call they had left…

I saw Tsae Shiang too…

But she left TOO…

Why did so many bad things happen to me?

Why am I so damn unlucky?

I was quite happy at first but now I damn sad…

I sat there waiting until 5.20…

Maverick came and went back to school with Nicholas…

I think they are sleeping over at school…

Forgot who told me liao…

QM get to sleep over on Friday…

Boys only…

No wonder…

YYY will come to school la…

After that Tian Yoon came…

Chat with her for a while…

Told her I saw a flasher…

She ask me to report…

I don’t want…

Saw Jared…

Then he disappear…

I damn scared I saw a ghost…

Lolx…

Then he came up bus stop…

Then a bus stopped opposite…

Jared say Xin Yuan on the bus…

He say he waiting for Xin Yuan…

Jared don’t know say what say until I like Zheng Kang…

I remember liao…

I ask him why Xin Yuan will couple with Xiao Yun de?

He say Xin Yuan shuang wor…

Then he say Xin Yuan got a lot of ex de…

I ask he not like Suet Ping de meh?

Jared say Xin Yuan’s ex from other school de…

Why other school?

Other school weird weird de…

Then Jared say I like Zheng Kang liao…

Then I say I don’t like la…

He say fine fine you win…

He ask Ding Jern call Xin Yuan…

Then him, Xin Yuan, Ding Jern and his gf stand there to chat…

Before leaving he hit my head and say I got white hair liao…

Then Xin Yuan saw my name tag…

He ask Jared am I Bi Hui?

Then Jared say yes then he say hi to me…

Then Jared say I like Zheng Kang…

I heard it…

I straightaway say no la…

Sei Jared…

Every time simply talk de…

Then Tian Yoon’s bro come liao…

Dump me alone…

Then Chee Yong and Choon Hiang came…

Choon Hiang was shocked when he saw me…

He thought I went back liao…

Then saw Shu Min…

She was with Jo Fan and Woon Khai…

Borrowed coins from her to call dad…

Then I saw dad opposite…

Turns out traffic jam…

Today KL holiday wor…

I really wanna go Pink’s house…

I ask dad is Sungai Besi far from here?

He say yes…

Then he say mum sure don’t let me go de…

My plan was I follow wei ling back then dad go Puchong fetch me…

But I jux asked mum…

She say cannot go…

So sad wei…

Thursday

2008-01-31T18:38:00.000+08:00

Today Thursday…

I woke up late…

Got scolded by Man Ning’s mum…

Turns out Shen Zhong also woke up late…

Lolx…

Normally on Thursday we got house practice de…

But they changed the date to Tuesday…

On Tuesday it rained so we didn’t have practice…

Today Ya Jing not coming to school…

I asked her yesterday…

She says she very tired so she don’t wanna come…

We both decide to jux make a card for the sgrafitto…

Not really sure of the spelling…

Damn ma fan la…

Have to bring sketch book to school…

An Yi came up to me during perhimpunan and told me a lot of stuff…

She says sometimes she was jux joking but mayb her tone was too serious so she offended us…

She says she can’t act like nothing happened and continue to hang out with us…

She needs some time to get over this…

Ya Jing is a nice person…

She won’t do stuff like this…

May Yan and I do seni homework in class…

We finished in like half an hour like this…

I really don’t like Miss Sherry la…

I don’t know why…

She looks quite nice…

LOOKS only…

But her way of teaching is inhumane…

Lolx…

Don’t think I used the right word…

Don’t care la…

Last week…

She ask us to read 2 chapters in 5 minutes…

She wanted to ask us questions too…

If we didn’t answer the question we didn’t get to sit…

WTF la…

5 minutes only le…

What does she think we are?

God?

I doubt god could memorize 2 chapters in 5 minutes la…

May Yan say that’s the way of old ladies…

Old unmarried ladies…

I am starting to agree with her…

Last period relief…

Teachers got meeting…

Jia Yee came by our class and came in and had a chat with us…

I say I think she will be with Ye Shan…

She say I also say she will be with Kgai Ter la…

We chat for a while then Jia Yee went t chat with Ye Shan before heading back to class…

They sat together for a while…

Couldn’t see how they look while sitting together…

Someone blocking my view…

Today went home quite early for a Thursday…

Saw Zi Ling at the bus stop too…

She was waiting for the bus…

She was going to Kasturi…

A lot of people wanted to get on the bus…

After the bus left,

The bus stop was half empty…

Most of the students were waiting for the bus…

I was late for BM tuition…

Last week everyone was present…

Everyone besides me…

This week Jyb Sheng and Wai Leem were absent…

Teacher forgot I was coming this week…

He didn’t prepare any work for me…

The others were doing the work I did last Saturday…

I had to wait for teacher to Photostat some work for me…

I was the only one who wasn’t doing the work on the diary…

So special le…

Lolx…

The 3 guys sitting in front of me damn weird la…

Keep whispering and pushing here and there…

The funniest part was when teacher passed a piece of paper for us to write our names…

He wanted to take attendance…

The 3 guys changed each other’s name…

The names they changed damn funny wei…

Asked Bryan for committee’s number…

He only got 3…

2 I have d…

Only 1 got use…

Kgai Ter is the head of Gathering…

Can you believe it?

Xin Yuan is Pen. Ketua Permainan…

Forgiving

2008-01-30T18:34:00.000+08:00

Is forgiving someone wrong?

It might and it might not…

It depends on how you see it…

Forgiving someone that deserves to be forgiven should be right…

What bout forgiving someone that supposedly doesn’t deserve your forgiving?

Forgiving someone that supposedly did a lot of bad things to you?

Is it right?

I don’t know…

I forgave her…

I forgave her when I said I wouldn’t…

Am I doing the wrong thing?

Saying I won’t forgive her…

And I’m the first person to forgive her…

Among us la I mean…

I don’t really know what got into me…

I saw her sad face and suddenly I had an urge to forgive her…

That’s weird right?

I think so too…

Told Elly, Jane and Pink bout my decision…

I think they bu shuang liao…

Especially Pink…

Am I doing the right thing in forgiving her?

I damn scared Elly they all…

They are my bestest friends…

If they ignore me I don’t know what I am supposed to do…

Had lunch with Ya Jing…

We ate Domino’s…

Saw Nick and *erhem*…

They damn sweet wei…

Oh yeah…

Had a bet with Ya Jing on will you stay…

I won…

No surprise there…

You seldom come for practice right?

After lunch we went back into school and saw Amy…

I thought she had went home…

She says she got LM duty…

We all go PBC there help sell stuff….

I pei Ya Jing sell the bread…

YYY also there…

He in charge of selling eggs…

Jia Yong belanja me cotton candy…

I want blue colour de…

I also don’t know why…

Special gua…

Then I tell Amy I wanna belanja YYY eat…

Guess what Amy did?

She straightaway jumped up and went up to YYY with my cotton candy…

She says he says thanks…

Amy and Ya Jing wanna eat the egg…

Ya Jing and I went to buy the coupons…

Then hor…

That stupid YYY gek sei me jor…

I was standing there for like a few seconds liao…

Joe Yin came and ask me wanna buy?

I say wan but someone doesn’t wanna sell only…

Joe Yin scold him…

You know what he say?

I look like I wanna kao zai more than I wanna buy stuff…

Waliao eh…

That time only him in front of me le…

Gek sei ah…

Then Amy wanna eat sweet potato too…

So Ya Jing steam the sweet potato for Amy…

Then I wanna go find man ning…

Wanna tell her go find me when her practice ends…

She keep telling me to wait…

I no patience so I left…

The second time Amy told Jaykerr to tell man ning…

He ask who’s man ning…

Amy says ask la…

Then he ask out loud…

Quite loud liao la…

Who’s man ning…

Damn swt wei…

After that Ya Jing wanna go mv liao…

So, me, Pey Jing, Shi Yi and Amy walk around lo…

Oh yeah…

We wrote something on the board…

Amy wrote for me she wrote…

520

24625…

She added a smiley face at the corner…

Shi Yi wrote for Pey Jing…

Carbohydrate and Oxygen…

I think…

Then we help Shi Yi write…

I think I wrote I <3>

Shi Yi wanted something starting with the name D ma…

That was the first thing that came into mind…

Amy and Pey Jing wanted to go out liao…

So I pei them lo…

Oh yeah…

I bought another packet of cotton candy…

This time purple colour…

Wu liao le…

Then man ning came out…

Turns out Jaykerr knows her…

Wu liao hor him…

Every time the ball is in his hands…

The ball sure kena man ning de…

Don’t know is accident or on purpose de…

Then Ya Jing came back…

She say Mr. Lim didn’t go mv also…

Then she got up the bus to mv…

Oh yeah…

I was almost late to tuition…

ALMOST only…

Today our tuition full…

No extra place…

Ry-Ann sat beside me…

She looked familiar…

She was from Puay Chai…

My suspicions were correct…

When I reach tuition…

Wei Hong looked at me and asked Andrea I look like Mei Jun hor?

Andrea say your eye got problem la…

He say no la…

When he saw Mei Jun in school he thought about me…

He say we look alike…

Andrea say why don’t he take picture of me and a picture of Mei Jun to compare?

He say he wanna put inside computer to scan…

He say sure got 80 percent alike..

Swt wei…

I don’t even know who they talking bout…

That day Pink gang bang people almost everyone know liao…

According to Chong Sheng la…

Yung Yew changed to Wednesday class…

PPT

2008-01-29T18:29:00.000+08:00

Today ask Jane how she feeling…

Still wanna kill PPT?

She say ok liao…

Forgot to write yesterday…

Jane’s problem solve d…

PPT didn’t turn up…

Elly say saw her doing duty…

Elly, Jane and I went to toilet…

Very long didn’t jux the 3 of us together liao…

I damn bu shuang PPT liao…
F her la…

I don use rude words de…

But recently cox of PPT I start using liao…

She likes to be the third person so much ah?

Friendship…

Love…

Everything she also is the third person…

Make people argue…

F her!!!!

Damn gek ah…

I talk bad bout her u know…

I don care if it isn’t nice or right to do that…

No one understands how I feel…

I really believed her…

Thought she could be my friend…

Told her my secrets…

Told her too much in fact….

Trusted her too much…

She isn’t really as innocent as she looks…

She almost…

ALMOST…

Ruined my friendship with my friends…

My closest friends…

Could you believe it?

I didn’t think too much at the start…

Jux thought maybe my friend liked her company more than mine…

She is a really scary person u know…

She looks so damn innocent…

She doesn’t look like a person capable of doing such hurtful things…

I should have known…

When I saw her acting…

Jux for a joke la that time…

She can be a good actress…

What did I ever do to her?

According to her…

I was her first best friend in this school…

Ya rite…

If I was why the hell would she back-stab me?

She back-stab everyone…

Well…

Not really everyone la…

Those that are close with her…

Me, Elly, Amy, Pey Jing….

A lot la…

The only people she doesn’t back-stab is Pink and Jane…

I think Pink is cox she scared of Pink…

Jane is cox she not really close with Jane…

Nothing much for her to back-stab…

Does she even know what the meaning of friendship is?

If she even knows…

Why the hell is she doing this kind of things?

She won’t gain anything…

She will only lose us as her friends…

We can’t be as close as last time…

Not anymore…

I don’t know bout everyone else…

But I for one know I can’t…

I can’t trust her…

I trusted her…

What did I get?

Almost losing my best friends…

I won’t make the same mistake again…

I gave her a chance…

What did she do with it?

Nothing…

She made us hate her even more than last time…

At first I was still quite ok with her…

Cox I knows what it feels like when all your friends ignore you…

Especially your closest friends…

But,

Elly says a bit fake lo…

Talk bad bout her behind her back…

Still so friend with her…

Almost like how she treated me last year…

Mayb we shouldn’t talk bout last year…

But u must know something…

We tolerated with her back-stabbing…

Partly cox we didn’t know…

Partly cox we thought she would change…

Mayb it’s our fault for ignoring her…

Mayb it’s not…

It depends on u…

Will u forgive someone who back-stab almost everyone?

Even if we continue being friends with her,

It’s jux on the surface only…

There’s no trust anymore…

She made me doubt her words…

She tells everyone a different story…

How can u expect us to believe her anymore?

She lost our trust…

As everyone knows…

Trust needs to be gained…

We gave her our trust…

She misused it…

Nearly ruined our friendship…

How can we still trust her?

Unless we lose our memories or something similar happens…

As I said,

I hate back-stabbers…

I really really very bu shuang her…

She made a couple break…

Cox of her…

Can u believe it?

What the hell la…

They couple for 3 months liao…

Suddenly the guy like an yi…

He wanna kao her…

So he break with his gf…

U know what stupid reason he gave his gf?

He says she doesn’t care for him…

Not enough…

Ya rite, as if…

You jux wan a reason to break with your gf only…

You know you made your ex cry…

She really likes you…

She cried for two days…

Cox of you she will never couple again…

You really hurt her…

I hate you!!!

Why are you such a play boy?

We found out during recess…

I think Jane knew but this earlier…

Then Pink damn angry liao…

She keep saying wanna fan wor…

I keep saying no…

I don’t know why…

She almost fan with me….

Almost only la…

Then I think PPT sort of realize who we talking bout…

She went to find Amy…

Then she cried…

Zi ling went to console her you know…

WTF la…

PPT should be the one apologizing and consoling…

Not Zi Ling ok?

Jane, Pink, and E-Jia they all damn bu shuang liao…

They keep saying wanna scold her…

Then don’t know why I also start getting angry…

I ask Pey Jing && Pink pei me go back my class…

I wanna tell Amy what happen de…

But her teacher too early come liao…

The only thing I did was shout AMY….

Lolx…

Then when we went back into class I start scolding lo…

I damn bu shuang liao…

Ya Jing keep asking me to cool down but I couldn’t…

I so damn angry until I use rude words…

CY heard me…

He wanted to know what happen…

Second period after recess…

Pink, Jane they all pass my class…

They say they wanna scold PPT…

I think my teacher came into class la…

So I went back into class…

I thought they didn’t scold until…

After school Pink only tell me they found her in the toilet…

The 6 of them gang bang her…

Don’t really know how to spell…

Don’t know considered gang bang or not…

Pink and Jane the only people that scold her lo…

Pink say I should have gone…

I got more things to say than them…

Cox among us…

I am the 1 that most angry PPT de…

Pink say her answer keep changing…

Her answer changes every time they ask her…

Damn obvious she faking la…

She says she wants everyone to hang out together…

Last year…

I heard a different story from my friend…

Her supposedly best friend in Form 1…

Jux heard it today…

I angry so I ask her what kind of person was PPT?

According to my friend:

PPT is:

The kind of person that looks kind if u aren’t close with her…

When u start getting closer…

She won’t seem so kind anymore…

She’s the kind of person that mux get what she wants…

Her friend mux be her friend only…

WTF…

Why what she say and what my friend say totally different 1?

My friend won’t lie to me lo…

No use also she lie to me…

PPT really damn scary le…

She double-faced 1…

She is really suitable to be an actress…

That’s for sure…

I jux called Amy…

I wanted to tell Amy what really happened but what Amy said made me unable to do so…

She say PPT didn’t wanna tell them what happened de…

They keep asking her…

She keep repeating:

Nothing happened…

It’s my entire fault

They didn’t do anything…

Amy said this is the sentence they heard the most…

Amy still say PPT say she wanna transfer school but she can’t cox her brother is studying here too…

PPT says she won’t talk to guys anymore…

Ya rite, as if…

She also said she won’t like guys anymore…

Did she really d it?

NO…

She keep asking Amy what should she do now?

What can she do?

Is she really acting or is this real?

I damn gek cox Amy keep helping her…

Amy doesn’t know anything…

No offence…

But that’s the truth…

Amy keep saying how can we treat PPT like this?

Have we forgotten the times last year when we were laughing together?

Those happy memories?

Mayb Amy wanted to help PPT…

But she chose the wrong things to say…

I so angry is cox of last year…

You still want me to think of last year?

I still remember the happy memories…

But I also can’t forget the shock when I knew she was the one who back-stabbed me…

She was the only 1 I didn’t suspect…

Not that I don’t trust my other friends la…

Jux at that time when my friends all ignore me,

She still continue to be friends with me…

Now that I know the truth,

I really think she damn fake…

She was the one who back-stabbed me and she can act like nothing happened?

Why did she do so?

So I would have no friends?

She still could act like normal?

She didn’t talk bad bout me?

How can she act like she’s totally innocent?

Did she ever think how we would feel when we found out?

Did she think we wouldn’t find out?

She doesn’t know us…

We will find out…

Either now, or later…

We are the kind of people who will tell our friends stuff like this…

Stuff we think they should know…

This won’t be a secret for long…

She seriously should consider becoming an actress…

She would be a great actress…