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I don’t understand…

I really don’t…

Y mux this bottle of stars appear now?

I’m not complaining…

I jux wanna know y now?

Y couldn’t it have appeared earlier…

Jux when I had given up hope,

Given up hope on both him and this bottle of stars appearing…

Y does everything happen jux when I had given up hope?

This bottle of stars broke around 2 months ago…

As I said,

The breaking of this bottle symbolized the breaking of my heart…

The pieces of stars symbolize my heart…

It was broken into pieces more than 2 months ago…

I had jux given up hope on him…

I gave up hoping to get this bottle of stars again a few weeks ago…

On the same day that I had given up hope on him,

Elly called me to tell me she had bought the bottle of stars that I wanted…

That I had been searching for so long…

How sweet of her…

Love ya lao gong…

As she said,

We are not lesbian…

Jux really good friends…

We have known each other for three years…

Jux celebrated our anniversary last Saturday…

But what does this mean?

I don’t know…

Everyone advised me to give up…

Ok,

I have started to accept the fact that nothing is ever going to happen between us…

I am starting to give up…

And this bottle of stars reappears…

Can this be considered as lost and found?

The bottle of stars that I broke was important to me…

It symbolized my heart…

My heart had been broken and now another bottle of stars appears…

Does this mean my heart isn’t hurt anymore?

No way…

The bottle of stars broke…

My heart broke too…

This new bottle of stars can only be a replacement…

It’ll never be the same…

Never have the same meaning…

Not anymore…

The difference between these 2 bottles are 1 is blue and the other is white…

Even if I manage to find blue stars to change with the white stars…

It’s still another bottle of stars…

It’s not the same one…

A heart that has been broken can never be the same as before…

Maybe this means it’s time to move on?

No matter what,

I still wanna say thx to Elly for finding this bottle of stars for me…

Thx lao gong…

Though the meaning is completely different,

This bottle of stars will still be very important to me…

Cox it’s your present to me… =)

Labels: Friends, Giving Up, Jux a bunch of crap, Live life to the fullest

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day...
Ya Jing says she going to buy chocolates to give to her friends...
I liked this idea...
Ya Jing buy chocolate...
I buy sweets lo...
Tomorrow i gonna be Santa Claus...
Lolx...
Oh yeah...
Elly, Jane && Pink's Valentine's present is more special...
After school...
Elly told me she saw you standing outside 3C1...
I thought it was cox of X...
But Elly repeat C1...
Then i started thinking who studies in C1...
Why the hell would you be standing outside C1?
I saw Shwu Pui...
She told me you had a fight...
That's the only thing on my mind right now...
Who did you have a fight with?
Why?
For one moment i felt like smsing u...
Wanted to ask you...
Wanted to know whether you were hurt?
But i won't...
Cox i can't let you know i still have feelins for you...
Sending such a msg would be like telling you i like you...
No wonder you looked angry when i saw you after school...
I thought I started to have feelins for YYY...
But when i heard you had a fight i started worrying bout you...
More than i worried bout YYY....
I think YYY is sick...
Cough...
I wanna quote something meaningful Elly said:
男生只会向不把他们放在眼里的女生现殷勤。。。
If that's true...
Then i think that's the case with you...
Elly tell me don't so zhu dong...
Always say hi to guys when i see them...
She says i should wait for them to say hi...
My horoscope says there are more important things for me to worry about...
So i shouldn't waste my time worrying about emotional problems...
What's the important thing?

Labels: Friends, Giving Up, Jux a bunch of crap, Meaningful stuff..., Things that happen in school, To you... Will u have the chance to see this?

Friday

Today LM held its General Meeting for this year…

They passed a lot of students for this interview…

Amy, Pey Jing, Jane and Shi Yi passed their interviews too…

Oh yeah…

Meng Choon joined LM too…

Pey Jing and Jane in Publisiti…

Shi Yi and Meng Choon in Tugasan…

Amy in wakil kelas…

This is the first time I ever saw dk so full with lm members…

You joined LM too…

To my surprise…

Why would you wanna join LM?

For your friends?

I wonder how many will actually turn out to duty?

Maybe they can’t even fill half the dk?

I really wonder what’s wrong with this year’s committee…

They simply pass people…

No offence…

But…

Not all will turn up during duty…

Most jux join for the sake of their friends…

Whenever there are meetings that let us skip class or anything…

The dk is usually full…

But when it’s time to duty?

Not even half…

Maybe this year it will be different?

Maybe the committee’s know what they are doing by letting so many people pass?

They are getting stricter by the day…

Last time they let us play with our phones if it was a duty on a Saturday…

Now?

No…

They even confiscate your phone…

For old LM members la…

Cox they say we should know the rules…

I damn angry…

They didn’t even tell us this rule before…

Another new RULE…

If we don’t come for 3 duties,

They will give us a surat pecat…

I think if you got write letter saying why you didn’t come for duty is acceptable gua…

Last year…

I thought the committee members were bad enough…

Who knew this years committee were even worst…

Suddenly I wish last year’s committee members didn’t graduate…

I sort of miss them…

I hope no LM committee members see this…

But what I say is true…

Last year’s committee also said if we don’t come for duty we will receive a surat pecat…

But they didn’t really do it…

So only a few people take them seriously…

I think this year’s committee members really will give surat pecat lo…

But they really can’t expect us to come for every duty right?

What if we really can’t come?

I know it’s a rule for us to write formal letters so that they know why we don’t come…

But I think writing letters is a waste of time…

I think they should change the rule to telling a committee member…

At least they know and we don’t need to waste our time writing letters…

Another thing…

The signature drive…

I know they want us to know them and them to know us…

But it’s jux a waste of time…

Maybe they jux wanna find an excuse to torture us?

For example if 1 of the committee doesn’t like you…

He/She can ask you a ton of questions and still not give you their signature…

The worst part is we have to do this EVERY YEAR…

I jux realized I don’t like a lot of things bout LM…

Lolx…

Anywayx…

I really hope next year’s committees’ will be better…

After meeting me, Ya Jing, Wei Ling, Jane, Elly and An Yi went out eat chicken rice…

Jane forbid us to eat roast chicken…

Lolx…

We chat during lunch…

We were talking bout Evan…

Then we saw her ex…

We suddenly shut our mouths up…

Damn funny you know…

Then we start talking bout how good she is…

Damn fake wei…

An Yi and Ya Jing went back to school to get their purse…

Before they came back the food was served…

We start to eat first lo…

Hungry liao ma…

When An Yi and Ya Jing come back that time we don’t know why start talking bout QM…

At first we were talking bad bout QM…

Then I suddenly remembered Evan’s ex they all QM lai de…

We quickly change our tone…

Say QM very good…

Say what the sun got Vitamin D ah…

Damn swt le…

Then Jane, Elly and me went toilet…

Soon Ya Jing came in too…

We chat inside the toilet until someone wanna come in…

That person’s reaction when saw us in toilet is like…

Wtf la… So long de…

Lolx…

After paying the bill we went back school…

Start to rain…

Then we all parted ways…

Somehow we all manage to meet in canteen…

We chat in canteen while waiting for our cars to come…

Anywayx…

This day damn fei la…

Wei Ling fong me fei gei AGAIN…

Chi Yiu suddenly call her and tell her tomorrow they straight away go Sunway College…

Gek sei me ah…

Every time also fong me fei gei de…

Next time I wanna call her fong fei gei queen liao…

Lolx…

Saturday

Today LPS got organize a Managing Events Workshop at Sunway College…

Ting San said it would be better if we come…

She said we could gain a lot of benefits if we came…

I come with Willa…

She cheat me…

She say must reach before 7.30…

Scare me only…

When we reach after 7.30 nobody care also…

8.00 only ask us to gather to mengambil kedatangan…

Then they tell us what to do and what not to do during the workshop…

We divided into 2 groups…

2 buses…

My jie got come…

Long time didn’t have a long chat with her liao…

She also studies in P4…

Same class with you…

She’s PKT…

Lolx…

She told me a lot of stories bout you…

The stories quite funny…

Our workshop lecturer was Cik Yati…

She’s a nice lady…

She made this workshop fun…

Although I was very sleepy and was going top fall asleep any moment…

She made us energized…

I didn’t feel sleepy anymore…

We took notes on how to manage events…

Yer…

My jie’s handwriting damn small wei…

Even smaller than mine…

I thought mine was small liao…

Cannot…

I mux write smaller than her…

Lolx…

Wu liao rite?

Prepare proposals…

And stuff…

She got me interested in events management…

To tell the truth,

I get interested in a course very easily…

Before this I wanted to study hotel management…

Thx to my cousin sis who is studying this now…

Then she divided us into groups of 8…

Gave us some materials and asked us to think of an event and design a poster…

We also had to think of the attractions for our event…

There were 10 groups in total…

My group was group no. 1…

Group members consisted of me, Ee Voon, Huey Shin, Shi Yan, Yoon Dong, Mun Heong, Mun Yee && Felicia…

Our event was 1001 Night…

It was a gathering for all librarians…

Shi Yan’s art is so damn nice…

The designs on the poster were done by her…

She’s so artistic…

So is Huey Shin…

Felicia too…

They were the main people who came out with the ideas…

Our attraction was J. K. Rowling would be coming…

Winners would get a set of Harry Potter books with her signature…

Our objective was for the librarians to gather and interact…

Then it was time for presentation…

I liked Jie Yi’s presentation…

Their event was for Prom Night…

I liked their way of presentation but even if I wanted to go I couldn’t go…

Cox their target audience is Form 5’s only…

Actually I liked the way Jie Yi presented…

She was so confident with herself…

I wish I was half like her…

I don’t really remember every group’s presentation…

I jux know Wei Ling’s group…

Group 10…

Their presentation went quite well…

Their event was Fashion Show…

Their target audience is kids and teenagers…

Then Hwee Yeen’s group…

Their presentation gave me a spooky feeling…

Their event was Halloween Night…

They turned off the lights…

For a scary effect…

Their main attraction was their activities…

They had their group members demonstrate some of the activities…

Death Kiss-- Jeslyn and Lin Foong kiss…

With a plastic in the middle la of cox…

Scary Draw-- Group members gathered in front then Khar Wei put her hand inside the plastic bag and I don’t know what she drew out…

She screamed…

Damn realistic her scream…

Then Anselm’s group’s event was Seek True Love…

It was held at Taman Jaya Lake…

It was for singles and couples…

It was held in conjunction to Chinese New Year && Valentine’s Day…

They won a prize for the best presentation…

Kong Weng’s group’s event was a recycling campaign…

Their attraction was Lee Hom would be coming…

I can’t recall what other events there was…

Oh yeah…

Thought of 1…

Lovealicious…

Don’t know if I spelled wrongly…

This was Ting San’s group’s event…

Louise came up with the idea of a week long charity drive for her group event…

Their target audience would be general public…

They would be bringing the orphans to Sunway Lagoon on the last day of the charity drive…

There was 1 group that came up with the idea of a dinner…

I can’t really recall which group that was…

If I’m not mistaken,

Their attraction was everybody had to wear a mask…

Jie told me more stories on the way back…

Oh yeah…

I saw Wyn Yau in the canteen…

Sunway College’s canteen…

Not CHS canteen…

He studies in Sunway College?

Why are there so many ex CHS students in Sunway College?

Oh yeah…

I was very tired when I got back home…

But…

No choice…

Still had to go tuition…

I was almost going to sleep during tuition…

Even my teacher noticed…

Then when I reached home I fell asleep as soon as I got home…

Then Elly called me…

I said I very tired…

Then she hung up…

Then Kath called me…

She ask me to call Elly ask her wor…

I very lazy so I didn’t call Elly…

Elly called me…

She tell me something bout Jane de…

I ask her why hang up on me?

She say I hung up on her…

Yer…

Freaky incident AGAIN…

Hate it la…

Wei Ling called me too…

She changed her blog template…

Damn nice wei…

Love it…

She says she finally found a blogskin that I say it’s nice…

I got so shuai meh?

Never say her blogskin nice before?

Jie also told me you like a girl in your class…

She told me the name…

If I’m not mistaken,

The girl is very cute and pretty…

She has big eyes…

Damn cute…

Sunday

Today is the second time I woke up from a dream crying…

It’s always connected to my family…

Is there a possibility that dreams can be continued?

Like you dream until halfway then you woke up…

Then you continue your dream the next night?

Don’t really know what I talking bout liao…

I think everything that happens in life…

Happens for a reason…

I think…

Think only ah…

I am having these dreams to let me realize something…

Something that is important for me to know or I will suffer…

That important thing is…

No matter how much I love you?

If I chose to be together with you?

Believe it or not…

I would lose my feelings towards you in a few days time…

That’s minimum…

Maximum is a few weeks/months…

That’s what I think…

I don’t know…

&& I don’t want to know…

What’s done is done…

I can’t change the past…

Would you say if I was your gf now you would still love me as much as you did from the start?

Your feelings will never lessen?

I don’t think so…

You are the kind of guy that likes a guy for a while and then you will dump her…

That’s who you are…

You dare say I am wrong?

Even if I am wrong bout you…

At least there’s 1 thing I am certain…

I might lose feelings before you…

I am sure bout that…

That’s the way I am…

I don’t know why…

EVERYTIME…

I thought I really liked the guy…

But,

Who knew?

In the end I realized my feelings were less than I thought…

The difference was so big…

Why am I like this?

I really thought I could like someone for a long time…

Mayb that’s jux childish thinking…

The world is not as simple as we think…

My family is too important to me…

Maybe some people will think I am jux finding a reason for my actions…

For giving up on a chance to happiness…

For letting someone I love go…

But,

I really mean it when I say…

I don’t wanna make my mum angry anymore…

She’s not young…

I am her only daughter…

It’s only normal if she cares for me…

She wants me to concentrate on my studies for now…

If she didn’t care bout what I do?

Is she really my mum?

Mayb I am jux finding a reason for my own fault…

Who knows?

I sure don’t…

Maybe my family is right…

We shouldn’t be involved in any boy-girl relationship now…

Now is the time to study…

I think I should learn Amy…

Even if I like you,

No use rite?

You don’t like me…

So,

Since you are willing to be friends…

That’s fine with me…

Mayb being friends will be better?

Now my target is PMR…

As Elly says…

It won’t break your heart…

Lolx…

Swt wei…

Oh yeah…

Today saw a guy that looks like my friend…

Eye small small de….

Lolx…

Don’t wanna ignore Amy liao la…

Don’t wanna be so shuai liao…

I don’t know what class I should take next year…

My mum and dad both think I should choose science…

Cox if I study science there is a bigger scope of jobs for me to choose from…

Compared to arts la…

I think I still have feelings for you…

Not a lot…

A little…

I don’t know la…

I jux know I don’t regret my decision…

Cox,

The result would be the same…

I think?

I might still end up with a broken heart…

Or you end up with a broken heart?

Don’t know…

My heart feels lighter…

Labels: Freaky Stuff... Up to you whether you wanna believe or not..., Friends, Giving Up, New Target, Things that happen in school, To you... Will u have the chance to see this?

Today is GERKO Day…

LM members have to reach by 6.45 to duty…

I know is to set out the tables for the clubs and society…

But I didn’t think it would be so early…

In the end,

We start bout 7 something…

I same group with mang ning and becca…

Then we duty until 8 I think…

Then they ask us go back dk…

I was listening to Wei ling so…

I didn’t see you again…

I damn bu shuang

Cox…

Everyone saw you…

Everyone besides me…

It was always like this…

U were jux near me but I didn’t turn so I missed you…

Is it fate?

Last year it was fate that let me meet you…

This year its fate that let me missed you…

Then…

After recess…

It was our turn to go into the hall…

I saw you…

FINALLY…

Lolx…

So exaggerating right?

But it’s the truth…

I haven’t seen you for so long that when I finally saw you I couldn’t recognize you…

But…

This time I could recognize you…

Although I didn’t see your face…

So I changed route…

I intended to go there…

Then an yi and I walked around…

Looking at the stalls…

Seeing what they had for sale…

An yi and I joined a lot of clubs…

We wanted to join lion dance de…

But I scared time clash with LPS…

But a girl told us new rule…

Girls cannot join lion dance liao…

So we continued to walk around…

Then we met mang ning and becca…

Mang ning ask me wan join Ed board or not?

I say wan…

She ask me join photography…

Cox that’s what’s she is joining…

Then an yi and I join pbc…

AGAIN…

I say I don wan join cox I kena pecat last year…

They say never mind la…

Jux join only…

Then we walk around the middle…

Where most of the sports clubs were…

We join a club called bola baling…

Then we go join bola tampar…

Then we walk around…

We saw Elly and Jane…

My gor was asking Jane to join LM…

And would you believe it?

He actually succeeded…

We all ask Jane join a lot f times liao…

Really a lot…

But she say no…

My gor actually succeeded?

I was so damn shocked…

Lolx…

A lot of QM came to ask an yi join…

A lot of PBC members ask us to join too…

Then we saw ya jing and poh yeng…

Poh yeng ask us join lion dance…

We say got a girl say no girl can join liao…

She say can…

Yoon teng they all join liao…

I didn’t really wanna join…

But an yi wan…

So in the end we join lo…

After that we walked around again…

I think Nicholas gave an yi the QM form…

Ask her to join…

An Yi wrote her name in the form to go interview LPS…

In the end…

When we had to go back to class…

An Yi was so confused…

I was so damn emo…

We hated Hari GERKO at the time…

An Yi was still wondering should she join QM?

An Yi sat with me in my class until teacher came…

Then she and ya jing disappeared…

Turns out she and ya jing went into the hall again…

Ya jing bought two bookmarks bout horoscope de…

Damn nice…

I also wan…

After school…

Elly, Jane, Pey Jing, Amy they all wanted to go eat chicken rice…

I wasn’t really in the mood to go out…

Cox I was scared I would see you there…

As I saw you walking out with Chi Yiu and Jared…

We went into the hall for a while…

I bought the bookmark…

I didn’t really wan to give them shillings…

So I bought two…

The first horoscope that came into my mind was yours…

I didn’t really know what your horoscope was…

So I asked an yi what horoscope was before hers…

She say is Scorpio…

She wanted to buy hers…

Sagittarius…

But out of stock d…

After we bought the bookmarks an yi wanted to go out to eat…

So we walked out…

On the way met my gor…

I damn bad mood so I bully him…

He ask me to join his clubs…

But his clubs all I also not interested…

Then we found Jane, Pink and Pey Jing…

They say they waiting for Elly…

So An Yi and I went to library to put our stuff first…

When we came back they were gone…

We ask Kris where they were…

She say they jux left…

Jane went out first with Elly…

Then An Yi was caught by Pn. Cheam…

I think is cox of her hair…

We wait for her for a while…

Then we went out and met Elly and Jane…

They jux came out of 7-11…

Chicken Rice Shop downstairs full liao…

So we went upstairs…

The first thing I did was look around to see who else was there…

And…

Guess what?

I saw you…

At the same moment…

You turned around and you saw me…

We also saw Chao Yan and Xiang Yan…

Jane sat with them…

We chose the table next to them…

I sat with my back facing Chi Yiu they all…

Then Elly or Pink say everybody sit together la…

So we changed to a bigger table…

When I turned around…

I saw that Chi Yiu they all also changed tables…

Then we order food lo…

Pink don’t know eat what…

Her hand kena the sauce…

She went to toilet to wash her hand…

Alone…

There were 3 guys behind her that wanted to go to toilet too…

When we saw those 3 behind pink…

We all laughed…

We say if they 3 rape pink also no one know…

Then pink come out and scold us….

She say she heard our laughter…

Damn funny wei…

And then hor….

Jared, you and another guy went to toilet…

Chi Yiu come and tell me you wanna go toilet jux to see me…

That’s not possible lo…

You not so wu liao lo…

Then then then…

After you all eat finish you all wanna leave liao…

I don’t know wanna give you the bookmark or not…

An Yi say she help me give you…

She ask Chi Yiu to give de…

But Chi Yiu wan me to give you myself…

Then Pink say she help me give…

She ask you come over then she stuff the bookmark back into my hands…

At first Jane wanna ask everyone go toilet de…

Pink don’t wan…

She wanna eat her food…

Then I glare at Elly…

She say she don wan go liao…

I give you lo…

Then you like blur blur d de…

You ask is it for you…

Then an yi say she look at you with a look saying duh…

Then hor…

You ask still got anything ma?

Then an yi force me to say bye…

I say why need to say bye…

It’s not like I won’t be seeing you later…

An yi say bye means meet again…

SO I say bye lo…

Then pink wanna change lm shirt…

I pei her go lo…

Then she ask me change lm shirt too…

She don wan be the only one to wear lm shirt…

Then we finish eating liao…

Our bill 40 plus you know…

While we were walking back to school we saw Yu li and Hui li…

Then we saw song jian they all…

Then I pei an yi go library get her lm shirt…

She also wanna change…

Then we go into the hall again…

Wanna find Pink, Jane, Elly and Pey Jing…

Find until Pink and Pey Jing only…

Then I think we walk out of the dewan and saw suet ping…

Then…

Jared n Chi Yiu come out lo…

Chi Yiu start giving out the cards for bola jaring…

Then Jared scold her…

Say she simply give out the cards again…

Then I say I really wanna join de…

Then Chi Yiu say she help me write my name…

And An Yi’s name too…

But I wanna write myself…

Then she ask Jared got bring the paper out or not…

Jared got…

So I write my name and An Yi’s name…

Hand phone number I leave blank…

Then I ask Chi Yiu she got tell you I like anybody else?

She say Jared got tell you…

I damn bu shuang Jared…

After that we go in dewan then I ask Pey Jing to join jaring too…

Since Amy wants her to join…

She say ok lo since we all join…

Then Jared ask Pey Jing to join LM…

Pey Jing join publisiti…

Cox we all also in publisiti…

After that we FINALLY found Elly and Jane…

They go have girl talk…

We chat in the girls canteen….

Then you walk past us…

Since An Yi say you wanted to be friends so I smiled when I saw you…

Pink tell me you smile…

She didn’t know I was the one who smiled first…

You haven’t changed…

Not at all…

Then Choon Yit and Chia Loon come over to chat…

Then I only know Jane got crush on my gor…

Jux a while only la…

But damn funny wei…

Damn unbelievable…

Then I saw Jared and you…

An Yi and I go ask Jared whether my gor go back d or not?

Jared say he still in dewan…

Then I wanna go in dewan find my gor de…

But An Yi wanna go back canteen…

Then Jane and I walk into dewan find him lo…

But couldn’t find him…

Maybe he went back liao?

Jared saw me looking for my gor and thought I like him you know…

Damn gek ah…

Then after that Elly and Jane went to chat again…

Me, Pink, Pey Jing && An Yi went into dewan…

Then it was time to go duty…

So we went dk wait lo…

Pink and I went to 1C1 to find An Yi’s little brother…

He doesn’t even look like An Yi lo…

Then we duty until 4.30 I think…

We start around 4…

Then Wei Ling call her dad tell him go bus stop fetch her and Chi Yiu...

Then they pei me go out bus stop wait…

An Yi, me, Wei Ling and Chi Yiu go out…

Then Elly come out too…

She ask us wait for her…

She wait outside school only…

So Wei Ling, Chi Yiu and I walk to bus stop lo…

Oh yeah…

Wei Ling tell me Xin Yuan was born in Taiwan…

So he is considered a Taiwanese?

Lolx…

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