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Friday, December 26, 2008 12:47 PM
Mad
I think i've gone mad. After being in penang for one whole month, i suddenly miss eating a lot of food. I can randomly think of food that i want to eat. Lolx. And all of those food i haven't eaten for quite a long time. I think i'm going to go crazy soon.Labels: Jux a bunch of crap
Wednesday, July 2, 2008 2:56 PM
Cried for results again.
Jane finally came to school d.
Reached school quite late but still went to the library to find weiling.
Saw HIM holding a tray of stuff.
Walked faster cox dint really wanna see him.
Saw anyi n amy.
Anyi teman me go library.
Walked until half way then saw weiling d.
She scolded me for coming so late.
Tomorrow LPS got photo taking session.
10 am.
Means i'm skipping recess n a little bit of classes.
LM got duty too.
Form 3 only.
After perhimpunan.
Oh.
I know why he was holding that tray of stuff d.
Prizes for the winner of the badminton match.
He got some prizes.
He's not as pro as he says.
After perhimpunan supposed to have hair check but nothing happened.
PJPK.
Choon Yit n Khang Yee dint reply all of us.
We still felt guilty.
Damn fun.
Pn. Tan wanted us to play badminton or basketball.
I told her peishe is teaching us how to do yoga.
Peishe don't want.
In the end Pn. Tan herself teach us yoga.
She actually fell for my stupid excuse.
Learning yoga was quite fun.
Went back to class.
Zhu Jun is in calyx.
Tan Keat Sim was waiting.
She dint even care that maverick was in our class.
They saw our msgs.
Choon Yit dint know wat we were saying sorry for.
Khang Yee lazy to reply.
Me n May damn gek.
Lim Ser Kien reported to Pn. Chee.
Pn. Chee wanna c Khang Yee n Choon Yit.
Omg.
We felt super guilty when we heard that.
Couldnt really finish my nasi lemak during recess.
Couldnt stop feeling guilty.
We decided to tell Pn. Chee the truth.
Went down with them after Geography.
Pn. Chee wasn't at her place.
Decided to come again at 11.30.
Did our corrections for KH until 11.40.
Went to find Pn. Chee.
Told her the truth.
We changed it a bit.
We said May had gastric.
She was quite relieved to hear us tell her the truth cox she dint really think those two will ponteng.
He passed by with his bunch of friends.
He's stil giving me hope.
I think so.
They called Pn. Chee a lot of names.
Including ah ma, ah jie and auntie too.
Quite funny hearing them call her mum.
Went back to bengkel and continued doing our correction.
After kh went back to class for chinese.
Pn. Yap gave us back our paper 2.
She told us our weaknesses before giving us back our papers.
She said i did wrong in both sides.
Gong liao zuo wen n zuo wen.
Gong liao she said my expansion of the points all wrong.
Zuo wen cant write bout love.
This is the first time i wrote such a long essay for gong liao.
She actually told me all my expansion of the points are wrong.
The lowest marks in class is 33.5.
I had a feeling it would be me.
It was.
I tried hard to stop myself from crying.
My total is 68.
1 mark more than last term.
When i saw weiling i couldn't hold back my tears anymore.
Saw Jie.
Gave her the notes she wanted.
She asked me y was i crying.
I jux answered results.
Then saw someone i dint wanna see at the moment.
Saw Elly they all.
They were concerned bout me.
Sorry i cried.
It's stupid.
Thx for ur concern.
A lot of ppl saw me crying.
Quite funny now that i think back of it.
I dont think i cried so hard for Sejarah.
Weiling was consoling me.
I think she used the wrong way.
The more she said, the harder i cried.
I know it's stupid to cry for results.
I cant help it.
If i dint write but love i could have got an A for once in chinese.
I only got 12 marks out of 30.
Pn. Yap dint even mark my essay.
She wanted to use my gong liao as an example for the other students.
This is the second time i cried for my results.
First time is Sejarah.
I seriously studied for it.
I only got 58 marks. 
Labels: Friends, Jux a bunch of crap, Live life to the fullest, Things that happen in school
Monday, April 7, 2008 10:07 PM
Something New
Well…
Woke up damn early today…
Went
Traffic jam when we were nearing the cemetery…
I slept the whole journey…
Tired ma… =)
We reached about 7…
We actually reached earlier than my other relatives…
We were looking at the gravestone…
Not sure did I use the wrong word…
My grandfather passed away 5 years before my brother was born…
He bought this piece of land when his best friend died…
So the gravestone only had two of my older cousin’s name…
Then my grandmother passed away bout 3 years ago…
Those people that came to do something…
I don’t know what…
They asked me to write down my name…
My bro n my form 5 cousin’s too…
When we went to bury my grandmother’s body,
I noticed the gravestone was different…
Her name was now in gold…
Meaning she has passed away…
They carved my name, my bro’s n my cousin’s name onto it…
Mayb cox our surname is Liew…
Don’t worry…
I’m not dead…
They carved it at the side…
Well…
As everyone knows,
My Chinese name is damn freaking hard to write…
It has so many strokes,
For god’s sake!
I myself dint know how to write my own name until I was in standard 3…
I know that’s all crap…
I’m getting to the point soon…
As I said,
We reached so much earlier than the others…
My bro was looking at the gravestone…
He commented that my name was the most particular…
It had so many strokes that the person couldn’t possibly carve it with the same size as the other names…
I noticed it a long time ago…
Hey…
It’s my name…
How could I not notice my name was particularly big?
I was like…
You like to state the obvious hor?
It’s so damn obvious my name is so special…
Then,
My dad or was it my mum?
Cant recall…
Well,
One of them said:
Of cox la,
Her name comes from
Both of us,
Me and my bro,
Were like so confused…
Huh?
What are they talking bout?
Mum or dad explained…
Before I was born,
Mum went for the ultrasound thingy…
I think it’s that…
I jux know it’s to check is the baby healthy n guess the gender…
I swear I don’t know what happened!!!
They actually told my mum I was a boy!!!
What the hell?
Cox of that Oh, so clever doctor,
Or was it my own fault?
Don’t care…
Let’s jux blame it on the doctor shall we?
Mum and Dad and almost everyone were thinking of good names for me…
They thought I was a guy,
So they only thought of names for a boy…
Who knew?
When I was born,
I was a girl…
I dint have a name…
So sad,
I’m going to cry…
Lolx…
They were all confused (I think)…
They had been expecting a boy and a girl came out…
And they had not even thought of 1 good name for a girl…
So,
Mum’s good friend…
Should be considered good friend la…
Went to
Or was she already in
Who knows?
And found someone to pick a good name for me…
And count the strokes I think…
Not really sure…
I jux know my name actually comes from
And I only find out now…
Why dint they tell me earlier?
Haiz,
To think if my bro dint make that obvious comment I would still be in the dark…
Stupid ultrasound…
Can’t be trusted…
Chia…
I don’t think I told you this before hor?
I knew everything a long time ago…
Except the part bout my name…
That’s new…
I don’t really like cemeteries…
They have a spooky feeling…
Is it only me?
Then my stupid dad go scare me…
I was holding the money they were going to burn…
And I was walking here and there…
Then dad suddenly says:
You don’t hold that and simply walk around la…
Later the ghosts follow you ah…
They say I beg you la…
Give me la…
Omg…
Though I know its jux crap,
Jux dad trying to scare me,
But I’m still scared…
I hate ghosts!!!!
Hate!!!
Labels: Jux a bunch of crap
7:00 PM
Emo Post
Emo post rite?
Sorry, can’t do anything bout it…
Several deaths have happened around me…
My niece died…
She was only 8 months old…
She wasn’t even born…
1 more month and she would be born…
Jux dat 1 month,
But God wouldn’t let her live…
Although she was never born,
I never really got to know her,
But she had a place in my heart…
Not much,
But there still …
Hearing her death made me realize her place in my heart…
I had been waiting for this niece,
A niece I would treat as my own little sister…
Jux when we all thought she was gonna be born soon,
God took her away from us…
Everyone in my family had been waiting for this little baby to be born,
Everyone including her 2 year old brother…
Everyone is sad to know her death…
I jux can’t imagine how her parents are feeling right now?
Their pain mux be worst than mine…
Especially my cousin…
Those who had their babies for 3 months only already cried like hell when they lost their baby…
What bout her?
8 months…
She has been carrying this baby for 8 months,
8 whole months,
Everything was fine until now,
The doctor suddenly tells her that the baby’s heart has stopped beating…
She mux be suffering…
I am sure of that…
It’s impossible to lose something that close to u and not suffer…
Her husband can’t be by her side too…
However,
She has to stay cheerful…
She can’t break down…
She still has a 2 year old son to take care of…
Well…
I said several deaths happened right?
There’s another…
My tuition teacher died…
Cikgu Yushak…
He’s been teaching me Malay since form 1…
He’s one of the best teachers’ I have known…
He was a great teacher…
Had a great memory…
He was a joker…
Used to tell us jokes in class…
He even tolerated us when we were listening to mp3s…
Where can u find another teacher like that?
The week before…
He even reminded us to do our homework…
This week,
I went to tuition as usual…
We changed to another room…
I thought Cikgu Yushak was absent…
Who knows?
The person-in-charge of the tuition centre came in and told us that Cikgu Yushak had passed away…
He also told us that Cikgu Yushak had prepared work for us…
Cikgu Yushak prepared a karangan for us to write…
The title was ‘How I felt when my grandmother passed away’…
Ironical isn’t it?
It’s like he knew what would happen…
Cikgu Yushak was a great teacher…
He did his best to guide us in writing karangan…
I doubt I will ever forget this teacher…
I was gonna cry,
But I managed to hold back my tears…
Two deaths have occurred to the people around me during these holidays…
Two deaths in jux three days…
How can my post not be emo?
I’m done with being sad…
It’s useless being sad…
I still need to continue my life…
But from today onwards,
I think I will start thinking the negative way… =)
Correction:
My teacher dint pass away...
That stupid person-in-charge say until not clear...
Then he say wat our teacher is a good teacher those crap make me think teacher really passed away...
I was so shocked when i saw my teacher the following week...
Turns out is his relative pass away...
2:18 PM
Stupid Flight
Don’t know why mum went to book tickets for Firefly for our trip back to KL…
The original time was supposed to be 7.30 …
Then they sent mum a msg saying the flight would be delayed until 7.45…
Don’t know y,
Mum saw it was 1945…
But when she read it out she said 1745…
Which was in less than an hour from now…
Make us all rush to pack our bags and stuff…
When we were done,
In the car on the way to the airport,
My cousin asked her was she sure…
Mum gave me her phone to check the msg…
I saw it was 1945…
Mum said she read out 1945 and we were the ones who told her 1945=5.45…
We corrected her…
She read out 1745 which was 5.45…
Wasted our time so we turned back and went back home…
We reached the airport around 7…
Mum received another msg saying that the flight would be delayed to 8.45…
1 hour more only so never mind…
We went to eat Kenny Roger’s for dinner…
Then went to check in at 8.15…
The guard asked me where I was heading…
I actually answered him
Swt…
I was already in
I realized my mistake and said KL…
Lolx…
So yu…
Waited until 8.45…
They said delayed until 10.00…
No choice la…
Have to wait…
OMG!!!!
There was a super cute guy behind me…
Judging from his chat with 2 other girls…
I guessed he was either 17 or 18…
I didn’t wan to overhear them…
They were too loud… =)
They were talking bout how many As they got for SPM…
He got 10As,
That’s if I didn’t hear wrongly la…
Then don’t know why they chat bout pubs…
He said he uses a fake id to get in…
One of the girls asked him…
Aren’t you of age d?
Her cousin (I think) answered her…
He’s jux 17 this year…
Going to be 17…
We finally boarded the plane at 11.45…
Delayed for 4 hours ah…
I had to wait for 4 hours in the airport…
The guy sat behind me…
The 2 girls sat a few rows behind him…
The air stewardess started demonstrating how to use the lifejacket…
And told us bout safety precautions…
I was a bit scared…
But after their explanation I was even scared…
Scared of what?
Scared that the plane will crash…
That was stupid thinking right?
But life really too fragile d…
U don’t know when u might die…
I was thinking bout what would happen if I really died…
Thought for quite long…
What are the things that I would regret if I died before doing it?
There’s quite a lot actually…
That’s when I started to think you should live life to the fullest…
I finally started to calm down when we reached
After getting off the plane,
I turned around and saw him waiting for someone…
Should be waiting for the girls…
I was correct after all…
He really was waiting for them…
He’s so cute and so gentleman…
He’s almost perfect…
Lolx…
That’s impossible rite?
But he is perfect le…
I don’t really know him but he’s quite gentleman from my observations…
Who cares if he’s perfect or not?
It’s not like I will still see him after this…
Wednesday, March 19, 2008 6:20 AM
Don't Understand =(
I don’t understand…
I really don’t…
Y mux this bottle of stars appear now?
I’m not complaining…
I jux wanna know y now?
Y couldn’t it have appeared earlier…
Jux when I had given up hope,
Given up hope on both him and this bottle of stars appearing…
Y does everything happen jux when I had given up hope?
This bottle of stars broke around 2 months ago…
As I said,
The breaking of this bottle symbolized the breaking of my heart…
The pieces of stars symbolize my heart…
It was broken into pieces more than 2 months ago…
I had jux given up hope on him…
I gave up hoping to get this bottle of stars again a few weeks ago…
On the same day that I had given up hope on him,
Elly called me to tell me she had bought the bottle of stars that I wanted…
That I had been searching for so long…
How sweet of her…
Love ya lao gong…
As she said,
We are not lesbian…
Jux really good friends…
We have known each other for three years…
Jux celebrated our anniversary last Saturday…
But what does this mean?
I don’t know…
Everyone advised me to give up…
Ok,
I have started to accept the fact that nothing is ever going to happen between us…
I am starting to give up…
And this bottle of stars reappears…
Can this be considered as lost and found?
The bottle of stars that I broke was important to me…
It symbolized my heart…
My heart had been broken and now another bottle of stars appears…
Does this mean my heart isn’t hurt anymore?
No way…
The bottle of stars broke…
My heart broke too…
This new bottle of stars can only be a replacement…
It’ll never be the same…
Never have the same meaning…
Not anymore…
The difference between these 2 bottles are 1 is blue and the other is white…
Even if I manage to find blue stars to change with the white stars…
It’s still another bottle of stars…
It’s not the same one…
A heart that has been broken can never be the same as before…
Maybe this means it’s time to move on?
No matter what,
I still wanna say thx to Elly for finding this bottle of stars for me…
Thx lao gong…
Though the meaning is completely different,
This bottle of stars will still be very important to me…
Cox it’s your present to me… =)
Labels: Friends, Giving Up, Jux a bunch of crap, Live life to the fullest
6:18 AM
Stupid Flight
Don’t know why mum went to book tickets for Firefly for our trip back to KL…
The original time was supposed to be 7.30 …
Then they sent mum a msg saying the flight would be delayed until 7.45…
Don’t know y,
Mum saw it was 1945…
But when she read it out she said 1745…
Which was in less than an hour from now…
Make us all rush to pack our bags and stuff…
When we were done,
In the car on the way to the airport,
My cousin asked her was she sure…
Mum gave me her phone to check the msg…
I saw it was 1945…
Mum said she read out 1945 and we were the ones who told her 1945=5.45…
We corrected her…
She read out 1745 which was 5.45…
Wasted our time so we turned back and went back home…
We reached the airport around 7…
Mum received another msg saying that the flight would be delayed to 8.45…
1 hour more only so never mind…
We went to eat Kenny Roger’s for dinner…
Then went to check in at 8.15…
The guard asked me where I was heading…
I actually answered him
Swt…
I was already in
I realized my mistake and said KL…
Lolx…
So yu…
Waited until 8.45…
They said delayed until 10.00…
No choice la…
Have to wait…
OMG!!!!
There was a super cute guy behind me…
Judging from his chat with 2 other girls…
I guessed he was either 17 or 18…
I didn’t wan to overhear them…
They were too loud… =)
They were talking bout how many As they got for SPM…
He got 10As,
That’s if I didn’t hear wrongly la…
Then don’t know why they chat bout pubs…
He said he uses a fake id to get in…
One of the girls asked him…
Aren’t you of age d?
Her cousin (I think) answered her…
He’s jux 17 this year…
Going to be 17…
We finally boarded the plane at 11.45…
Delayed for 4 hours ah…
I had to wait for 4 hours in the airport…
The guy sat behind me…
The 2 girls sat a few rows behind him…
The air stewardess started demonstrating how to use the lifejacket…
And told us bout safety precautions…
I was a bit scared…
But after their explanation I was even scared…
Scared of what?
Scared that the plane will crash…
That was stupid thinking right?
But life really too fragile d…
U don’t know when u might die…
I was thinking bout what would happen if I really died…
Thought for quite long…
What are the things that I would regret if I died before doing it?
There’s quite a lot actually…
That’s when I started to think you should live life to the fullest…
I finally started to calm down when we reached
After getting off the plane,
I turned around and saw him waiting for someone…
Should be waiting for the girls…
I was correct after all…
He really was waiting for them…
He’s so cute and so gentleman…
He’s almost perfect…
Lolx…
That’s impossible rite?
But he is perfect le…
I don’t really know him but he’s quite gentleman from my observations…
Who cares if he’s perfect or not?
It’s not like I will still see him after this…
Labels: Jux a bunch of crap, Live life to the fullest, New Target
6:17 AM
Emo Post
Emo post rite?
Sorry, can’t do anything bout it…
Several deaths have happened around me…
My niece died…
She was only 8 months old…
She wasn’t even born…
1 more month and she would be born…
Jux dat 1 month,
But God wouldn’t let her live…
Although she was never born,
I never really got to know her,
But she had a place in my heart…
Not much,
But there still …
Hearing her death made me realize her place in my heart…
I had been waiting for this niece,
A niece I would treat as my own little sister…
Jux when we all thought she was gonna be born soon,
God took her away from us…
Everyone in my family had been waiting for this little baby to be born,
Everyone including her 2 year old brother…
Everyone is sad to know her death…
I jux can’t imagine how her parents are feeling right now?
Their pain mux be worst than mine…
Especially my cousin…
Those who had their babies for 3 months only already cried like hell when they lost their baby…
What bout her?
8 months…
She has been carrying this baby for 8 months,
8 whole months,
Everything was fine until now,
The doctor suddenly tells her that the baby’s heart has stopped beating…
She mux be suffering…
I am sure of that…
It’s impossible to lose something that close to u and not suffer…
Her husband can’t be by her side too…
However,
She has to stay cheerful…
She can’t break down…
She still has a 2 year old son to take care of…
Well…
I said several deaths happened right?
There’s another…
My tuition teacher died…
Cikgu Yushak…
He’s been teaching me Malay since form 1…
He’s one of the best teachers’ I have known…
He was a great teacher…
Had a great memory…
He was a joker…
Used to tell us jokes in class…
He even tolerated us when we were listening to mp3s…
Where can u find another teacher like that?
The week before…
He even reminded us to do our homework…
This week,
I went to tuition as usual…
We changed to another room…
I thought Cikgu Yushak was absent…
Who knows?
The person-in-charge of the tuition centre came in and told us that Cikgu Yushak had passed away…
He also told us that Cikgu Yushak had prepared work for us…
Cikgu Yushak prepared a karangan for us to write…
The title was ‘How I felt when my grandmother passed away’…
Ironical isn’t it?
It’s like he knew what would happen…
Cikgu Yushak was a great teacher…
He did his best to guide us in writing karangan…
I doubt I will ever forget this teacher…
I was gonna cry,
But I managed to hold back my tears…
Two deaths have occurred to the people around me during these holidays…
Two deaths in jux three days…
How can my post not be emo?
I’m done with being sad…
It’s useless being sad…
I still need to continue my life…
But from today onwards,
I think I will start thinking the negative way… =)
Labels: Jux a bunch of crap, Live life to the fullest, Meaningful stuff...
Friday, March 14, 2008 3:45 PM
Happy Birthday
Didn't update for a long time so nidda wish some ppl now...Happy birthday to Katherinne Ong Mang Ning...
Sorry i couldn't go for ur party...
This girl has the most relationships with me...
She's my dad,my boyfriend,my jie,my wawa,she's also my best friend...
I think that's all bout her...
Erm...
Next is Wong Zi Ling...
Her birthday falls on White Valentine's...
Can u believe it?
Happy Birthday gal and Happy White Valentine's too....
Happy White Valentine's to everyone...
Labels: Happy Birthday, Jux a bunch of crap
Saturday, March 1, 2008 3:43 PM
Headache
My head’s going to burst…
I can’t stand it anymore…
Well…
Let’s start from the beginning shall we?
Today LM take picture…
I didn’t think he would go…
But he did…
They say time can fade away your feelings…
Why does it seem like I like you more with every passing day?
My jie
His friend X
Him
Me
Story
- Start -
Ling say he didn’t admit he like See Ying Bin also…
I think he like another girl d…
Not sure…
Couldn’t find out…
Goes up to X and him when they are in the library…
She doesn’t want him to hear so she pushes him away…
Eh… X… Does he like See Ying Bin?
Ask him yourself la…
You like See Ying Bin is it?
Yes…
Second time…
No…
Yes or no?
No…
Then who do you like?
Why you wanna know?
I help my friend ask…
Who’s your friend?
Do I know him/her?
Yes…
Jie describe a bit lo…
She didn’t want to say who ma…
LPS de…
Form 3 this year…
Who knew…
I only know 3 form 3 LPS only…
Bi Hui, Jia Yee and Chi Yiu…
Chi Yiu sure out d de la…
Jia Yee not interested in him also…
Sure Bi Hui de la… (I think they own self guess de this part…)
Before Jie admit is me…
Bi Hui very cute de…
Her face looks like baby…
I wanna pinch her face… (Don’t know real or not)
Then Jie admit is I wanna know de…
Then I don’t know what they talk bout la…
Monday give u an answer…
Ask Bi Hui join netball la…
Ok…
I will tell her…
- End -
You know when I find out?
At night ah…
Jie also found out he changes target every month…
Jie
Me
Tonight call me…
Got something important to tell you…
What?
He knows we know each other d?
Ya…
At first I thought is cox I was talking to Jie…
Didn’t think too much…
Before that…
Planning to go out to eat with Elly they all de…
Then saw him and Chi Yiu…
Ask Amy ajak Chi Yiu go eat too…
Then I ask Chi Yiu only they two?
Jared le?
Chi Yiu say don’t know…
Then I and Wei Ling walk in front…
Then we met Jia Yee…
Ajak Jia Yee go eat too…
Then don’t know when Jared appears…
He went to find Jared…
Then him, Jared and Chi Yiu disappear…
I decided to go pay for gathering first…
Aiya…
Cut to the main points la…
When we went to eat, he wasn’t there…
Chi Yiu and Jared eating with a bunch of guys’ next door…
Jared didn’t realize he was gone…
Didn’t see him lo…
Before 4, I and Wei ling came out to get signature so saw him…
He was with Suet
Went back library duty…
Then 4.20 leave went wakil stor find Amy…
Saw Suet Ping there…
Then waited for Amy until 4.50…
While I was waiting for dad,
Saw Jared and him…
I wanted to act dumb…
Like I didn’t know they were there…
They talked to 2 guys at the bus stop…
After that Jared say bye to me so couldn’t act dumb anymore…
Sei Jared…
Every time also ruin my plan de…
Before seeing them,
I was planning to write that essay for Pui Yee…
After they passed by I started to write that essay…
*I swear I’m not perasan… It was real…*
The 2 guys that talked to Jared were looking at me…
Now that I think of it…
They looked at me when Jared and him were talking to them…
Then Man Ning’s mum came…
She gave me a few coins to go call dad tell him don’t need to come…
Used quite a long time…
Stupid phone…
Then,
*Again I swear I not perasan*
Man Ning’s mum was waiting for me a bit after the bus stop…
That means I would have to pass by those two guys…
One of the guys said…
Tomorrow need to come for netball practice ah…
He was speaking so much more louder than he needed to…
It was so damn obvious he wanted me to hear that…
Or coincidence…
Didn’t think much…
When I was in the car…
Started thinking…
Then at night found out about Jie’s conver with him…
OMFG!!!
I was so damn freaked out…
He knew already?
Why the hell did I find out so late?
No wonder that guy at the bus stop speak so loud la…
Everything makes perfect sense now…
I had been planning to come to school tomorrow anywayx…
I had confirmed everything with Amy and an yi before I found out he knew d…
Couldn’t back out d…
Reached a few minutes after 7.30…
Told Amy bout what I found out yesterday…
He reached around 7.55…
Jux when I was walking towards QM room…
I saw him when I turned around…
It’s like fate won’t let me meet him…
A lot of times these kind of things happened….
Called Teck Seang…
His match should end around 12 so I ask him come back school…
Wanted to gek someone…
He says he only can reach bout 1…
So I changed my leaving time to 1.30…
I was so scared he would go back before 1.30…
But Amy says he and Jared will come back after eating to merayau-rayau in school…
Had a long chat with an yi…
Our original plan was to study today…
But we ended up…
In Amy’s words,
Merayau-rayau around the school…
Lolx…
Saw Rushan, Choon Yit, and Nicholas they all…
They also merayau-rayau around the school…
Amy left around 9…
Oh yeah…
Gave Jared an early birthday present…
=)
Something damn surprising happened today…
Lolx…
I actually caught a ball…
OMFG!!!
Usually, the ball will slip through my hands…
It happened after walking back from QM room…
A girl dropped the ball and I jux caught it…
Like I was so used to it…
LOLX…
I think I have ball phobia…
After Amy left,
Did something stupid…
Shouldn’t have done it…
Gave Jared a packet of sweets…
I ask him to share with them…
I thought he didn’t hear me…
He didn’t say anything…
I repeated it a few times…
Then that stupid Jared suddenly go say…
Oh! I know d! Not my birthday present also…
Then he walk over there and say…
Bi Hui belanja us…
Jared’s words were directed towards him…
Then I don’t know why…
But I turned and saw him use something to throw X…
Then I saw the packet of sweets in his hand…
I damn gek ah…
Then Jared took An Yi’s phone…
An Yi chased him for a few minutes to get her phone back…
I jux sat there and went through my contact list…
I wanted to find someone to help me…
I don’t know if I’m thinking too much…
But,
You know there are plants between the pondoks right?
He walked until he was near the plant then he suddenly turned around and went to find X…
He gave me the feeling he wanted to talk to me…
But he gave up in the end…
Am I thinking too much?
They had a few matches…
Ended bout 15 minutes before 11…
They were planning to go eat McD…
Then Rushan called An Yi…
He asks An Yi go out makan…
An Yi ask me to go too…
Then Yi told me she heard them say she ask Bi Hui come wor…
Never mind la hor…
Damn funny wei…
We jux walked out of school lo…
I ask An Yi call Rushan ask him will they mind if I go.
Rushan say no…
Then we went there…
Yi sit beside Rushan…
Then we left to go back to school…
Merayau-rayau again…
Would you have asked me to go eat with u all if I didn’t leave?
Don’t think so…
Told Yi quite a lot…
Don’t worry…
It’s all my personal stuff…
Even if she spills it out also never mind…
Sms Jared…
They still at amcorp…
Jared asked me what time I going home…
I hoped so much that they would come back before I went home…
But my dreams won’t come true…
Now I think is you won’t come back as long as I haven’t gone back…
There was still bout 20 minutes…
Rushan they all play Frisbee…
Yi and I sat at sports centre there…
5 form 1 boys were playing football…
Yi and I zat them…
They were so damn daring la…
Not scared of seniors de…
I don’t know what I should do…
I really like you…
I wanted to keep this liking a secret…
You might ask why?
1 simple reason…
You don’t like me…
Another reason is…
I don’t like the way your friends look at me…
It’s like I’m a prisoner…
Maybe I’m not…
But they give me that kind of feeling…
You are a popular guy…
Who knows how many people are your close friends?
It’s like I can’t do anything wrong…
Like I am being watched…
Do you know how scary that is?
My friends don’t look at you like this do they?
Why are they like this?
What did I do to them?
You told them I like you?
I don’t like this kind of feeling…
I cried when I said this…
Is it wrong to like someone?
Or is it jux cox the person I like is u?
Chi Yiu and Jie both said you want me to join netball…
Why?
Why can’t you ask me to join yourself?
Can I know why?
If it was you,
I might join…
You are always like this…
You look so confident with yourself 24/7…
But you are totally different when it comes to a girl you like…
That’s what made me doubt you…
You weren’t yourself…
You said you would wait…
You said you were serious…
I told you if you don’t want to wait its ok…
You said you seriously wanna wait…
I jux didn’t know the most you could wait for was 3 weeks…
Why did you make me fall for you before giving up on me?
Jux when I was about to say I like you too…
Did you ever like me?
Or was it all jux a game to you?
Why couldn’t you jux tell me you didn’t have any feelings towards me anymore?
Why did you have to let me find out myself?
I wanted to start being friends first…
My wish finally came true…
But it came true with a price…
The price was you…
When will you ever turn around?
And realize I’m still waiting for you?
The most you can wait is 3 weeks…
I have been waiting for 3 months…
3 whole months…
Going to be 4 months soon…
This might be the first time ever I like someone for so long…
Wait for so long…
Monday is the day I’m going to get an answer…
I know the answer will never be me anymore…
It was…
Or mayb it wasn’t from the start?
But I still hope so…
No matter what,
Promise me something plx…
Plx be happy with whoever you choose…
Your happiness matters the most to me…
I know Elly will be scolding me by the time she reads this…
Mayb everyone that reads this will be scolding me stupid…
But I tried to give up…
I really tried…
I can’t…
I already used up all my strength to give up on someone last year when I decided to keep my feelings towards him in my heart and give you a chance…
That was the day we argued and my whole world turned upside down…
One of my friends once said…
No matter what,
You will still have some feelings for the person you last liked…
The only way to really give up is to like someone else…
In doing so,
You are actually putting your feelings on that person onto someone else…
Mayb that’s what happened to me?
My feelings towards that someone were all put on you?
Is that even possible?
Mayb it is…
I jux know I damn bu shuang you and X de…
Last time…
Cox you all come into library every day and you two very noisy…
Every time I duty DI I also choose Fiction…
Cox less people go there…
But you two go there everyday…
I don’t like to scold people…
I hate being DI…
Plus you two looked damn scary so I didn’t dare scold you two…
But I remembered you two…
I don’t know if you two remembered me or not…
Labels: Jux a bunch of crap, To you... Will u have the chance to see this?
Wednesday, February 13, 2008 2:11 PM
Valentine's Day
Tomorrow is Valentine's Day...Ya Jing says she going to buy chocolates to give to her friends...
I liked this idea...
Ya Jing buy chocolate...
I buy sweets lo...
Tomorrow i gonna be Santa Claus...
Lolx...
Oh yeah...
Elly, Jane && Pink's Valentine's present is more special...
After school...
Elly told me she saw you standing outside 3C1...
I thought it was cox of X...
But Elly repeat C1...
Then i started thinking who studies in C1...
Why the hell would you be standing outside C1?
I saw Shwu Pui...
She told me you had a fight...
That's the only thing on my mind right now...
Who did you have a fight with?
Why?
For one moment i felt like smsing u...
Wanted to ask you...
Wanted to know whether you were hurt?
But i won't...
Cox i can't let you know i still have feelins for you...
Sending such a msg would be like telling you i like you...
No wonder you looked angry when i saw you after school...
I thought I started to have feelins for YYY...
But when i heard you had a fight i started worrying bout you...
More than i worried bout YYY....
I think YYY is sick...
Cough...
I wanna quote something meaningful Elly said:
男生只会向不把他们放在眼里的女生现殷勤。。。
If that's true...
Then i think that's the case with you...
Elly tell me don't so zhu dong...
Always say hi to guys when i see them...
She says i should wait for them to say hi...
My horoscope says there are more important things for me to worry about...
So i shouldn't waste my time worrying about emotional problems...
What's the important thing?
Labels: Friends, Giving Up, Jux a bunch of crap, Meaningful stuff..., Things that happen in school, To you... Will u have the chance to see this?
1:48 PM
New target
It started when Elly and I were talking on the phone...At first it was jux a joke...
Jux for fun...
I didn't think it would really become true...
I really starting to have feelings for him liao...
I changed my place with may yan...
So I'm almost beside him...
That was not the reason I changed my place ok...
We started to be friends...
Something that never happened in the past few weeks...
He overheard me venting out my anger on PPT...
He wanted to know why we were angry at her...
I didn't feel like telling him...
But...
He kept begging...
Plus he already heard most of it...
He jux wanted to know why...
He says girls are scary...
Can bu shuang someone and still act like nothing happened...
I took the chance to ask him does he still have feelings for her?
He say a little...
He say last time got a lot...
I even asked him why does he like her...
His answer was is there a reason why you like someone?
I said no...
I answered his question myself...
Told Elly bout this the next day during merentas desa...
She says the way he say still got a little feeling means his feelings toward PPT is indescribable...
Then the day before CNY holidays...
There was still a few minutes before recess...
I was talking to Ya Jing bout new year plans...
I planned to visit Pn. Chee on Monday to get ang pau...
Lolx...
He joined in our conversation...
I asked him did he want to go?
He said he already had plans on Monday...
He was going to go watch cj7 with his friends...
I said i wanna go...
He said come la...
They need to ask more girls to go too...
Now...
I feeling a bit regret i went...
Cox that argument between me and my friends...
I think made him bu shuang me jor...
He really damn scary...
Although he bu shuang me...
When he need to borrow stuff from me...
He can act like nothing happened...
And he says girls are scary?
I think guys are even scary...
They bu shuang someone...
According to 1 of my friend...
But they can still hang out with him...
Watch movies with him...
Like nothing happened...
Before this i really liked the kind of friendship guys have...
They can all hang out together...
One whole gang...
They can jux chat for a few hours(I think...=)...
They won't argue over things that girls argue....
Pn. Yap says she chooses to group with boys during assignments...
Cox she says boys make decisions easier...
They won't waste time like girls...
Today Tuesday d...
Today i didn't even talk to him...
Not one word...
Labels: Jux a bunch of crap, New Target, Things that happen in school
1:38 PM
Quite Sad && Hurt
There's still a lot to say bout my chinese new year holidays but i will post it later...The important things that happened were:
Well...
My cousin sort of had a chat with him...
She asked him does he like me...
Guess what was his answer?
Very easy...
One word...
No...
The part that angered me most was he actually said I knew you were going to ask that...
How the hell would he know?
He can read my cousin's mind?
Through a computer screen?
I don't think so...
Erm...
Monday...
I jux reached home at 2 in the morning...
Had plans to go mv with Elly,Pink && Peyjing...
Some stuff happened and we had an argument...
But...
As usual...
We were as close as last time...
Like nothing ever happened...
That's the way it is...
I dunno why...
No matter what happens...
No matter how we argue over little things...
We will still remain best friends...
I think the guys bu shuang me...
I not perasan...
Elly...
I really wanna tell you...
Arguments happen cox people have different point of views...
They never think from the other person's point of view...
Maybe you know how i feel...
Maybe you don't...
Nobody can truly know how anyone feels unless they stand in that person's place...
Experience what that person is going through...
No matter what...
You will always be important to me...
Labels: Friends, Jux a bunch of crap, To you... Will u have the chance to see this?
Friday, February 1, 2008 6:39 PM
Worst Day Of My Life
Didn’t really feel like going to school…
Cox Pink still angry…
But mum sure won’t let me ponteng de…
Yay….
Ya Jing got come to school…
She broke her leg or something…
So sad…
Jared says M going to mv after school…
Gek sei me ah…
Cox Elly and Jane going to mv after school too…
Then during perhimpunan we found out we had to go get our numbers for tomorrow…
Waste our time only…
Elly copy the answers for her maths while queuing up to get the number…
Damn long le the line…
After that we went back to class…
Wei Ling haven’t get back yet…
She passed my class…
She was like smiling but don’t dare to smile…
I looked to her side…
ZF was beside her…
She thought of the name ZF…
Makes sense in a weird way…
Yer…
Today YYY didn’t come…
Oh yeah…
LM got an inventory form that needs to be filled up and given back to Pn. Chia by today…
Jes Cee say I got white hair liao…
I old liao…
Lolx…
I thought I could skip from wiping the windows but KK say cannot…
So sad…
Turns out…
We don’t need to wipe the windows…
She wants us to sweep the floor…
WTF la…
Like this also don’t let me go…
I went downstairs to find Elly but couldn’t find her…
Went back upstairs…
Saw her…
She
Elly and Jane going mv after school to buy sports shoes…
To wear tomorrow…
Damn wu liao wei…
Becca ask us tell Pink she not eating for recess…
I didn’t feel like eating…
So jux bought a packet of drink…
Pink not angry liao…
She got stay back but she going tuition…
After recess we going science lab…
Jo Fan scared of Pn. Joyce liao…
He made sure everyone was ready before letting us go down…
He say last week Pn. Joyce scold him…
Saw M and XY…
Literature got a lot of homework ah…
Stupid school…
Change timetable again…
This is our 3rd timetable liao ah…
I prefer our 2nd timetable…
I don’t like this timetable…
Last period was maths…
Cik Gan ah still left a few minutes also mux give homework de wor…
Wei Ling was outside my class a few seconds after the bell rang for school to be over…
We went into library…
Saw Jared and Chi Yiu…
I asked Jared which 1 he involved in?
Gathering or Inter-Games?
He involved in Inter-Games…
I damn shuai…
I say like this then I sure don’t wan come liao…
Lolx…
Then he say he going to ask Zheng Kang come…
Then I say I sure come…
Wei Ling say she don’t want come…
We went out…
Saw YYY on the way out…
I ask him why ponteng?
He say too tired liao…
Today all PBC members absent…
All also too tired liao…
Couldn’t find Elly and Jane at bus stop…
So we walked back…
Then we saw Amy, Pey Jing, Shi Yi, An Yi, Elly and Jane…
Oh yeah…
I saw M too…
After that we
Then we have lunch with them…
Damn bu shuang the way Amy treat Pey Jing you know…
I couldn’t stand it anymore…
I scolded Amy…
I asked her why couldn’t she forgive her?
Why mux she treat her like this?
She acted blur…
She actually asked me who was I talking bout?
Everyone knew who I was talking bout…
Then she ask me is it Pey Jing?
I say if not…
I ask her why she can’t forgive her?
She said she doesn’t even know her how can she be angry?
How can she forgive her?
Pey Jing cried you know…
She was really hurt…
I knew she was really hurt by the way Amy treated her…
That’s why I scolded Amy…
Mayb I shouldn’t have done so that time?
But I couldn’t stand it anymore…
Amy…
I know you are reading this…
I wanted to add something de…
But an yi was there so I couldn’t…
I could forgive an yi even though what she did to me…
What did Pey Jing do that you can’t forgive her?
If you are really going to act as if you don’t know her……
After lunch Wei Ling and I went back to school…
We were late…
Then Qian Wei let us out to have lunch…
Saw Teck Seang…
He was helping someone get signature…
I also want…
Oh yeah…
Teck Seang knows M and Zheng Kang de…
He say Zheng Kang make him lose the match…
Lolx…
We went to sports centre to see if the squash coach got come or not?
It was jux a waste of time…
We two duty Counter de at first…
Then I had to duty DI…
That stupid Chin Kok Yong ask me go scold 3 Indians…
I kena marah pula…
Teck Seang knows Wen Han de oh…
Wen Han really likes Willa…
After mopping the floor…
Qian Wei let me duty Counter…
Saw Yong Liang…
He ask us get 1 LM form 5’s name, class and sign…
Teck Seang gave me back my committee list…
He say can’t help…
Gek sei me ah…
Then I kena marah by Qian Wei…
Around 4.30 we left the library…
Wei Ling called her dad…
She say her brother in canteen so we go find him…
We saw Albert…
I went to get his sign…
He say get the 4 sign below him only find him wor…
Y bad things happen consecutively?
Wei Ling and her bro were supposed to go to bus stop de…
But her father was already waiting outside school…
I walk to bus stop alone…
When I walk through the lorong,
I saw a flasher…
So damn scary wei…
I think he saw my reaction change…
I was so damn scared but I wouldn’t give him that satisfaction to see me scared…
I forced myself to remain calm and act like nothing happened…
But I quickened my pace…
I reached bus stop then I saw Nicholas sitting on the pedestrian bridge…
He was wearing outdoor clothes…
He looked quite cute…
My sai lou lai de le…
Of cox cute la…
Lolx…
Damn sien oh…
I alone only…
Then I wait until 4.45 then I went to call Man Ning’s mum…
Turns out she’s at airport…
She waiting for plane but the flight delayed liao…
She don’t know how to contact me…
She ask me ask my dad come fetch…
So I called my dad to come fetch me…
Before I went down to call…
I saw Shuxuan and Kai Lin…
I was debating whether I should get their sign first or call first…
I chose call…
Cox call more important…
But by the time I finished my call they had left…
I saw Tsae Shiang too…
But she left TOO…
Why did so many bad things happen to me?
Why am I so damn unlucky?
I was quite happy at first but now I damn sad…
I sat there waiting until 5.20…
Maverick came and went back to school with Nicholas…
I think they are sleeping over at school…
Forgot who told me liao…
QM get to sleep over on Friday…
Boys only…
No wonder…
YYY will come to school la…
After that Tian Yoon came…
Chat with her for a while…
Told her I saw a flasher…
She ask me to report…
I don’t want…
Saw Jared…
Then he disappear…
I damn scared I saw a ghost…
Lolx…
Then he came up bus stop…
Then a bus stopped opposite…
Jared say Xin Yuan on the bus…
He say he waiting for Xin Yuan…
Jared don’t know say what say until I like Zheng Kang…
I remember liao…
I ask him why Xin Yuan will couple with Xiao Yun de?
He say Xin Yuan shuang wor…
Then he say Xin Yuan got a lot of ex de…
I ask he not like Suet Ping de meh?
Jared say Xin Yuan’s ex from other school de…
Why other school?
Other school weird weird de…
Then Jared say I like Zheng Kang liao…
Then I say I don’t like la…
He say fine fine you win…
He ask Ding Jern call Xin Yuan…
Then him, Xin Yuan, Ding Jern and his gf stand there to chat…
Before leaving he hit my head and say I got white hair liao…
Then Xin Yuan saw my name tag…
He ask Jared am I Bi Hui?
Then Jared say yes then he say hi to me…
Then Jared say I like Zheng Kang…
I heard it…
I straightaway say no la…
Sei Jared…
Every time simply talk de…
Then Tian Yoon’s bro come liao…
Dump me alone…
Then Chee Yong and Choon Hiang came…
Choon Hiang was shocked when he saw me…
He thought I went back liao…
Then saw Shu Min…
She was with Jo Fan and Woon Khai…
Borrowed coins from her to call dad…
Then I saw dad opposite…
Turns out traffic jam…
Today KL holiday wor…
I really wanna go Pink’s house…
I ask dad is Sungai Besi far from here?
He say yes…
Then he say mum sure don’t let me go de…
My plan was I follow wei ling back then dad go Puchong fetch me…
But I jux asked mum…
She say cannot go…
So sad wei…
Labels: Friends, Jux a bunch of crap, Things that happen in school, To you... Will u have the chance to see this?